it's a well-accepted fact that death affects everyone differently. for some, it's a numbing experience, for others it's nothing short of a wake-up call. whichever category one finds themselves in, the end result is the same - a pressing urge, a need, to push forward despite the pain ( Read more... )

a wise person would tell me not to put all my eggs in one basket, but i'm starting to realize that that's a hard rule to follow when emotions are involved. strong emotions. all you want to do it throw caution to the wind and do everything here and now because you feel like if you don't take the chance it will slip between your fingers. patience is ( Read more... )

i'm typing this next livejournal post with wet fresh nailpolish on my fingers and a progressively intensifying headache. my room is a fucking mess and i am finally accepting that i just do not have enough storage space for my belongings, mainly my clothes. they just begin to form piles that i have trouble squeezing into whatever empty space i have ( Read more... )

i had been looking for a distraction, a way to prove to myself that it wasn't always about you and that i still possessed the chance to invest all the fragile parts of me in someone else. but now i'm afraid this is just all moving in the wrong direction and in some sick way i can foresee a dark cloud with no silver lining. it could really just be ( Read more... )

i awoke suddenly only to realize it was 6 in the morning and there was little chance i would make it back to sleep anytime soon. now i'm trying to figure out what i should do next - surf facebook for the next couple hours, clean my room, read a book, try and go back to sleep, go for a run, or just update my journal and chill out ( Read more... )

it's an awkward experience when someone exposes you. you know that person's been able to pinpoint exactly what it is you're thinking or feeling when you've found yourself out of excuses or explanations. you have no choice but to admit that that's the truth and there's no denying it. the worst is when it's a truth that you've been running from for ( Read more... )

i'm writing to you again, probably because i'm suffering from yet another cruel hangover that has left me filled with emotions and words to share. it will soon be may, which means another year has passed since you left the world. i was talking about you with my friend emma, who said that i must really miss you. i think the missing part comes in ( Read more... )

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so today i made the conscious decision that i was going to own this summer... own it hard :D

i've been searching for the right time to write in this blog, but it's become increasingly difficult with the rapid turnover of thoughts that flow through my mind on a daily basis. i find myself shifting from one topic to the next, exhausting all my mental power until there is nothing left to analyze ( Read more... )