too-too-too...

[angelmedic]

Life is on the rollercoaster route again... ups and downs and such.. and now just bumming around, making calls.. that sort of thing.. Physio test tomorrow.. la dee da la dee da..

I hate waiting on people.

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[salz_eee]

i agree...right now is down-time, n'est-ce pas?

SALOME:

[angelmedic]

You are experiencing a sin-induced crisis of faith. Trust me, I've been there. The reason it feels like nothing matters, that life is clouded up, there is no black and white, only gray areas, and the reason you want to stay away from church and mom and dad, is simple: you've fallen away from "truth". I'm not preaching, I'm just telling you that one way to fix it is to do the age old "repent and be saved". It's not a quick fix. In fact, it will be challenging, and you will not want it, necessarily. You may not even recognize you need it, but believe me, till you recognize the sin in your life and fix it... you will not be able to pray, you will not even be able to see your own faith... its kind of like being in a foggy city, I think... at times you might know God exists, love exists, etc, but it all seems so drastically... foggy. Get down on your knees, beg God for forgiveness, and pray. Believe you me, you'll feel a hell of a lot better when you do.

Re: SALOME:

[salz_eee]

I don't feel bad though. I feel...nothing. I'm perfectly complacent right now, to tell you the truth. I'm neither happy nor sad. Actually, no, at this present moment, i'm happy, but...usually is what i meant. I just need to make my own decision about faith and religion. I'm tired of mom and dad and all of you guys shoving this down my throat. I'm tired of being forced to see things the way everyone else does. I want to make my own decisions. You might not like them, but they're still MY decisions. I need to be independent, not just that, i've never wanted anything else so badly in my life. If there isn't any other way to get it, than this will suffice. So, please tell mom and dad to Back the hell off and give me space to think and act and make up my own mind. I'm not a little kid, i don't need to be spoon fed. I'm sick of the mush they've been feeding me. I'm ready to pick my own food now. It's my time.