ok.. Dee's a moron. A reflection on events and how they were taken.. among various other things...
Nothing interesting.. mostly selfnotes, so behind the lj-cut it goes.
Ok, time again to play "guess Dee's grades for the semester"
These are my predictions:
Transport...............B-/C
Thermo..................A/A-
Math....................B
Biochem.................A-/B+
Physio..................B/B+
German..................A-/B+
EGR.....................A-/B+
RA class................A
So yeah... as it stands right now, it doesn't look so hot for the semester.. lots an lots of possibilities for Bs and Cs... and its kinda sad how important these finals will be for me. I'm just going to lock myself up in my room, and pray and study.. neglecting all, my floor, phone, internet, Leo...
watched Elf last night.. interesting.. funny,but a little stupid for me. eh, I guess one needs stupidity after a LONG day of class.
Need to get everything ready for the portfolio tonight.. but first... meetings, meetings, meetings.
well, so that sums up the important stuff.
In ways of menial drama, I have the following to say:
I'm a little confused about housing next year. I have a lot of credits, so I should maybe lend my services to people who need a fourth or something for next year.. at the same time.. apparently I have to reapply for the RA position and everything...
I talked to Molly and Sam last night (in unrelated events...) housing is so dramatic for people.. its kinda odd and funny.
Oh its true what Chris Shramm said about the 10% of the floor who love you, the 10% of the floor who hate you and the rest just trying to live their lives... There are seriously right now 3 people who absolutely DESPISE me and my very presence antagonizes them... there are 3 people whom I absolutely love and are, at the very least, rather tolerant of my presence... and then there's everyone else...
le sigh.
So, I've decided not to go home for Christmas. well "home" to MI, I mean. I'm going to Cleveland, I think, atleast for sometime I don't really know what I'm going to do with myself. I was supposed to go home with Sam, but my mom doesn't like that idea.. and Leo's parents kinda want to see me..
I don't know..
... about RAing anymore. I think I'll purposely ask for a normal floor next year and hopefully upperclassmen. Sophomores are sooooo petty and self-centered. Ok, that was very unfair, some people are... but aren't we all? I guess I'm pretty full of myself sometimes...
I think, in trying to "do the right thing" I really mess up...
{and the reason why this is a protected entry}
Alcohol:
- policy says "no drinking", policy says "be respectful when playing music" & "24 hr - courtesy hours"
Now, having let people go for playing loud music and merely warning them.. SEVERAL times.. they assumed they could expect much the same for everything...
and now I'm evil RA Dee...
Liz:
I understand why Liz hates me, I think. Dan aggrevates me more than anyone merely because he's condescending to Leo. Now. I don't really hate Michael, and never really have, even if I've said that in the past. However, I'm awfully sarcastic and I guess this can be interpreted as really mean, even condescending... PARTICULARLY when people are sensitive to the topic. Ex: Being defensive of Leo anyway, the moment dan would say the slightest thing, it was enough for me to not talk to him, get mad at him, think he hates me, etc.
... and Liz, being a female human, I'm guessing is the same way about Michael. arg. I can't believe I'm such a girl. <~~~ realization that not only am I human, and girly and share characteristics with Liz (and thus Ashley) I am full of myself too.
I don't really know what to do.. other than stop insulting Michael, I guess :-P (*whines* but he's SUCH an easy target!!!) lol. Ok, no more insulting Michael for Dees...
Shelly:
- I took a stand about 2 weeks ago to really draw the line between friends and residents, and I think I really lost a good friend in the process. sigh. I love shelly and katie may, but I was friends with tommy and joe and molly first.. and they were all friends with each other... and all friends with Liz and Beth who apparently hate me.. I can imagine why Liz hates me.. but I don't understand why Beth hates me at all... but I feel really gossiped about and really uncomfortable hanging out in that room now.. sigh. Eh, so I decided to stop hanging out there, unfortunately this means not being too close to Katie or Patrick or Shelly and this is kinda sad.
- Apparently I was being really sarcastic to Tommy about a week ago... because well, Tommy's a genius at anything engineering and physics, and I was just teasing him because he said Doty's homework was easy.. well... Shells said something like: "I'm glad to see its not just Molly and disdain is really a chem e thing..." well, that was actually extremely hurtful. I'm going guess that Shelly really didn't mean it that way at all.. and that it was the culmination of a bunch of things that had gone on that day. So.. I just excused myself and left. I haven't been in the room since, and don't think I'm welcome anyway... so.. I'll just stay away lest asked.
More notes about family perhaps later. All for now.
Ok, time again to play "guess Dee's grades for the semester"
These are my predictions:
Transport...............B-/C
Thermo..................A/A-
Math....................B
Biochem.................A-/B+
Physio..................B/B+
German..................A-/B+
EGR.....................A-/B+
RA class................A
So yeah... as it stands right now, it doesn't look so hot for the semester.. lots an lots of possibilities for Bs and Cs... and its kinda sad how important these finals will be for me. I'm just going to lock myself up in my room, and pray and study.. neglecting all, my floor, phone, internet, Leo...
watched Elf last night.. interesting.. funny,but a little stupid for me. eh, I guess one needs stupidity after a LONG day of class.
Need to get everything ready for the portfolio tonight.. but first... meetings, meetings, meetings.
well, so that sums up the important stuff.
In ways of menial drama, I have the following to say:
I'm a little confused about housing next year. I have a lot of credits, so I should maybe lend my services to people who need a fourth or something for next year.. at the same time.. apparently I have to reapply for the RA position and everything...
I talked to Molly and Sam last night (in unrelated events...) housing is so dramatic for people.. its kinda odd and funny.
Oh its true what Chris Shramm said about the 10% of the floor who love you, the 10% of the floor who hate you and the rest just trying to live their lives... There are seriously right now 3 people who absolutely DESPISE me and my very presence antagonizes them... there are 3 people whom I absolutely love and are, at the very least, rather tolerant of my presence... and then there's everyone else...
le sigh.
So, I've decided not to go home for Christmas. well "home" to MI, I mean. I'm going to Cleveland, I think, atleast for sometime I don't really know what I'm going to do with myself. I was supposed to go home with Sam, but my mom doesn't like that idea.. and Leo's parents kinda want to see me..
I don't know..
... about RAing anymore. I think I'll purposely ask for a normal floor next year and hopefully upperclassmen. Sophomores are sooooo petty and self-centered. Ok, that was very unfair, some people are... but aren't we all? I guess I'm pretty full of myself sometimes...
I think, in trying to "do the right thing" I really mess up...
{and the reason why this is a protected entry}
Alcohol:
- policy says "no drinking", policy says "be respectful when playing music" & "24 hr - courtesy hours"
Now, having let people go for playing loud music and merely warning them.. SEVERAL times.. they assumed they could expect much the same for everything...
and now I'm evil RA Dee...
Liz:
I understand why Liz hates me, I think. Dan aggrevates me more than anyone merely because he's condescending to Leo. Now. I don't really hate Michael, and never really have, even if I've said that in the past. However, I'm awfully sarcastic and I guess this can be interpreted as really mean, even condescending... PARTICULARLY when people are sensitive to the topic. Ex: Being defensive of Leo anyway, the moment dan would say the slightest thing, it was enough for me to not talk to him, get mad at him, think he hates me, etc.
... and Liz, being a female human, I'm guessing is the same way about Michael. arg. I can't believe I'm such a girl. <~~~ realization that not only am I human, and girly and share characteristics with Liz (and thus Ashley) I am full of myself too.
I don't really know what to do.. other than stop insulting Michael, I guess :-P (*whines* but he's SUCH an easy target!!!) lol. Ok, no more insulting Michael for Dees...
Shelly:
- I took a stand about 2 weeks ago to really draw the line between friends and residents, and I think I really lost a good friend in the process. sigh. I love shelly and katie may, but I was friends with tommy and joe and molly first.. and they were all friends with each other... and all friends with Liz and Beth who apparently hate me.. I can imagine why Liz hates me.. but I don't understand why Beth hates me at all... but I feel really gossiped about and really uncomfortable hanging out in that room now.. sigh. Eh, so I decided to stop hanging out there, unfortunately this means not being too close to Katie or Patrick or Shelly and this is kinda sad.
- Apparently I was being really sarcastic to Tommy about a week ago... because well, Tommy's a genius at anything engineering and physics, and I was just teasing him because he said Doty's homework was easy.. well... Shells said something like: "I'm glad to see its not just Molly and disdain is really a chem e thing..." well, that was actually extremely hurtful. I'm going guess that Shelly really didn't mean it that way at all.. and that it was the culmination of a bunch of things that had gone on that day. So.. I just excused myself and left. I haven't been in the room since, and don't think I'm welcome anyway... so.. I'll just stay away lest asked.
More notes about family perhaps later. All for now.