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[angelofpain28]

I tried to call Alexis today. When she figured out that it was me she hung up on me. It hurts that she doesn't talk to me still, after two years. I don't understand why she can't forgive something that happened that long ago. We both got over worked about something between us and it wasn't even about our friendship, but about something completly

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[xyphonisha]

You said to tell you if someone didnt like you anymore....well...im here to let you know that I cant stand you. You are a drama-queen, a back stabber, and a poor friend...thus...you have no place in my heart. Although I dont wish anything negative to befall you...I do ask for you to leave me be. I have a very happy life now without the people that were in it before. Im in a great relationship, I have my best friend still and plan on keeping the true love I get from them. So please...just...dont bother anymore. No matter what you try or how many time you try to appologize...I could never accept you into my life again.

so now you know.
Alexis

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[angelofpain28]

I was a true friend to you and the only drama that was ever in my life was the drama between you and me when you didnt except that i was with someone that i loved.
I was there for you time and time again being supportive and being positive on what ever it may be regaurdless of if i nessiarly agreed with it or not. if that is not a true friend i dont know what is. if its not a true friend to after two years still care for you like a sister, i dont know what is.
i never judged i never critisized, but the one thing that i really trully fought for in my life was both judged and scrutanized.
I never stabbed you in the back. I never once deserted you, but with the one true test of faith in me i was deserted.
if you know anything about me, my friends are like family.

[cradleofcake]

Wow. I'm debating if i should get involved or not...Maybe not.

[ex_p_o_u599]

You and I have so much history...like...a lot. We've been friends for...*counts on fingers* 8 years? Right...or like 7.5 or something. We used to fight like, every single day and be frinds at the end of it. I will not lie to you, because I know that our friendship and everything that we have been through together deserves, at the very least, utmost honesty. I feel like we came from the same place and ended up, though in the same town, on different paths. C'mon, you know me, I would be lying to say that I was not dissapointed in you when you left Blinn. But on the other-hand, if you are happy...then I don't really care. So, then I'm not dissapointed, not if you are happy...does that make sense? Good grief, of course not. Like, if you stopped taking classes at Blinn because you didn't think you could or because it was too hard, then I'd have to sit you down and lecture you on your potential, but if you stopped it and now are in the firm belief that it is the greatest choice that you ever made in your life, regardless of past motives

[angelofpain28]

you know that was my point about this whole thing. I dont always agree with what my friends do or dont. Everybody runs their life were its comfortable for them and i wounldnt ask of them otherwise. They are still my friends and they are still in my heart. But it seems like because of my way of life i am cast out. I feel sometimes like yall treat me like a piece of garbage that is just waiting to be picked up by the garbage man.
when you dated leo, i spoke my peace on the subject and then i was done. i didnt avoid you because of it and i didnt ignore you because of it.
all i ask is the same from my friends as i give them, but it seems like too much of a burden for yall. the only one who has been loyal to me was Stephen, mike and a few others. My smoking had nothing to do with anyone but me making the choice. I lived my life with a little stress as i could because i didnt want to be the way i was in high school always getting sick from stress. what you dont know is that i have quit smoking, the majority of my time is either spent at

[ex_p_o_u599]

If we are really going to touch on the subject of smoking, then we can really touch on it. You don't understand at all where I am coming from with it, and you don't really seem to care. I lost my grandparents because of it. I watched them die. And I made you promise, because I didn't want to see the same thing happen to you, that you would quit, and you never did. I considered myself lied to. The reason why I got mad at you is because I cared. Not because I wasn't being supportive. No, I won't be supportive if you smoke. And, I'm really really sorry, but your smoking had a lot to do with much more than just you. Every single person that got a whiff, rode in your care, even hugged you while you smoked was getting a little bit of some 200-odd poisoins that you were "choosing" to put into their system. And for those who were asthmatics or had other lung diseases, or ever cared about you, yeah, it had a lot to do with them too...It hurt me that you kept smoking...but that didn't seem to bother you. Yeah, I'm sorry, but a part of me thinks

[angelofpain28]

As far as smoking goes i told you I would try and you know what then.. i wasnt strong enough to stop but now i am. and im sorry if it felt like i lied to you, you know that that was never my intention. i know you care about me and i know that you love me as a friend as much as i love you

[ex_p_o_u599]

alright. I'll give you a call...I can't respond right now, I just woke up.