Somebody needs to save me from myself.....I continually and will always be my own fucking worst enemy.

Have I lost my fucking mind? Why do I do this to myself? Why do I keep ignoring all the signs and setting myself up for hurt? Why do I have to care so damn much? Why? I don't get it....I never will...I keep fucking myself over. I swore this wouldn't happen....I swore to myself that I wasn't gonna care....that I wasn't gonna get attached...so what ( Read more... )

Ugh.....I'm about to go crazy for a cigarette!!!!! It sucks not having a fucking job........DCH needs to call me back!!!!!!

How You Life Your Life
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I GOT MY CAR FIXED!!! IT FEELS SO GOOD TO RIDE DOWN THE ROAD IN MY CAR AGAIN.......I MISSED IT SO MUCH!

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut ( Read more... )

I feel like my whole world is crashing down around me and there's nothing I can do but sit and take it blow by blow. My heart rips apart more and more each day, I can feel my sanity slipping. I'm filled with such a void that I stare off into space all day long analyzing everything in my head over and over again, even when I in a room full of people ( Read more... )

I am so alone.

I have so much crap on my mind right now. I think I'm going to go crazy.

God, I was reading one of my old journals and I realize that I was so damn immature, I can't belive that i wrote some of that stuff. I guess i'm finally growing up a little...i guess.