I can speak again
Yeah today has def. been an experience. It really has. It's made me think a lot. It's really all I have been able to think about actually. I was listening to this one song (Words We Couldn't Say by Steve Conte) and it just made me wanna cry. I dunno know why, I think I was just being emotional. If you wannt know how the song goes click
We couldn't say them
so now we just pray them
words that we couldn't say
Funny ain't it
Games people play
Scratch it paint it
One in the same
We couldn't find them
So we tried to hide them
Words that we couldn't say
It hurts don't it
Fools on parade
Taint it own it
Chase it away
We couldn't make them
So we had to break them
Words that we couldn't say
Sometimes baby
We make mistakes
Dark and hazy
Prices we pay
I sit here on my shelf
Just talking to myself
Words that we couldn't say
Someday maybe
We'll make it right
Until that day
Long endless nights
We couldn't say them
So now we just pray them
Words that we couldn't say
It was really heart-warming to see people with the stickers too. But of course you have the douches who want you to break your vow and do things to annoy you. *sighs* I really do think Mrs. Mueller is a homophobe now. I had an oral in French class today, Mademosielle Scovel said I could do it tomorrow, I had a monologue to present, Ms. Tilestone said I could to it tomorrow also. Mrs. Mueller was the only one who made me break my silence and present my Water Project. I even asked her if I could go on Tuesday so I wouldn't have to speak on Wednesday and she said no. WTF? At the beginning of class I had written down that Kelly would be late for class and she was like, "What?" She knew I was protesting, please don't make me speak.
Oh quick question! JJ why did u tell Katie I was talking during French? I didn't say a word! o.o
Yeah so I had to fake-blondes (Juniors I think) say some shit to me. I was in line for the Xerox machine in school and they were in front of me. They saw me like make hand guestures to Kelly (who was also in on the Day of Silence) and they kinda stared at me. They saw my "Day of Silence Participant" sticker and started:
Girl 1: Oh, so your not talking today?
Me: *points to sticker*
Girl 2: That's cool, so that means you don't have to talk all day?
Me: *nods*
Girl 2: What if a teacher calls on you?
Me: *shakes head*
Girl 1: You don't have to talk? Sweet!
Girl 2: What's you name?
Me: *frowns, glares and points to sticker*
Girl 1: *leans in* Wha, can't hear you?
Me: *mouthing* Dunno.
Girl 2: You don't know ur own name.
Me: *frowns*
Girl 1: Oh you don't know how to talk
Me: *slowly getting impatient and nice points running thin...*
Girl 2: So are you gay?
Me: *roll eyes and shakes head*
Girl 1: Are any of ur friends gay?
Me: *nods* (I included some of u bi people in that cateogory just to let u know!)
Girl 1: *nods* Oo...
Me: *waves to Ivo*
Girl 2: Is he not talking to?
Me: *shakes head*
Girl 1: Can you speak French?
Me: *...nods*
Girl 2: Did you just speak French with him?
Me:...*walks away*
Yeah, my patience grew thin with them!
OH! Interesting story! So I HAD to give my presentation in chem right? Well something funny happened! So I was talking about the different kinds of water ecosystems...
Me: Okay and so now I'm going to show the different kinds of orgasm...wow...I mean ORGANISMS!!! *goes to stand in the corner and laugh and hide at the same time*
Yeah, it was special! I felt soo bad! It didnt' help that the picture I was gonna show was of the Brown Booby. XD
I want to thank everyone who participated and supported me in the Day of Silence. It really helped me feel like I wasn't alone and it kept me strong. Especially those people who told me that I was cool for what I was doing. Thank you a lot.
I'm sorry to say but I'm also a little pissed today. PLEASE DO NOT SPREAD UR LIL HATE CRUSADE!! It doesn't help at all! IT JUST SPREADS HATE AND DISCRMINATION!! When I heard about this my day was seriously ruined. There is no point to it, none at all and no one is supportive of it. I seriously started crying on the bus when I realized that this action would be done at out nothing but pure hatred for a particular group. Hate makes Amber sad, VERY sad! Understand the point of the Day of Silence before you do something in protest. Thank you.
I'm making this post public because there are a few people who I want to see this. I also have a special message for one of those people!
*Baby I love you so much and I will always be there for you! Don't be afraid and don't hurt yourself because of stupid accusations people might make! Don't worry, next year we'll both show our respects on the Day of Silence and pray for a better future! I love you!
*If you are not the person I am talking to PLEASE don't ask me who it is? First off I wouldn't tell you, second off you probably wouldn't guess in a million years, third you don't know them and fourth it doesn't matter. Thank you.
Amber's Final Thought: Hm...life...it's interesting...