I dont wanna be chapter 9
Title - I dont wanna be
Rating - for all - few swear words tho :O
Description - Sophie wants payback, got the idea from Nayley of OTH!
Suffering from writer block... i know were i want this to go but cant seem to get it words. So frustrating! anyways this part may seem like a repeat as im taking it from Sian aspect then from Sophies :)
Sian fell into bed exhausted from crying, it was all she had done since she had come home. Sophie had tried calling on numerous occasions but Sian had rejected every one, she couldn’t bear to listen to Sophie right now. Not when her heart was breaking. She woke on Sunday feeling slightly better until the reality of last night hit her and the sobs started, she never knew someone could make you feel this way; like your whole world had caved in. She was angry at herself for allowing herself to feel for Sophie; all the time they had spent together they couldn’t have all been a lie surely? Sian wasn’t sure what was and what wasn’t genuine when it came to the sol called relationship she had with Sophie. She wanted to believe that it was genuine but part of her didn’t; it has all seemed so cruel. More hours passed and Sian hadn’t moved at all. A soft knock was heard before Rosie appeared in the room. Rosie took in Sian’s appearance; she looked terrible, her eyes were red and puffy and her hair was unkept and everywhere. Not a good look in Rosie’s opinion. Rosie was going to kill Sophie when she got her hands on her. Rosie made her way over to Sian putting her arms around Sian pulling her in for a hug as sobs erupted from the blonde again. She tried comforting Sian as she let her emotions out she had never seen Sian in such a state and her reassurance of that it couldnt have all been a lie fell on death ears. She couldn’t believe her own sister could sink so low
“Listen Sian your too good for Sophie, she doesn’t deserve you, you are the nicest, sweetest, most amazing person I know and anyone will be lucky to have you. Please don’t doubt that. Rosie tried reassuring but Sian just sobbed harder.
“Rosie I’m a fool! And the worst part is I still love her” Sian cried, it was the first time she had admitted to anyone that she loved Sophie and Rosie was taken aback at her friends confession. Love. She had never seen like this. A few hours later and Sian was alone again with just her thoughts of Sophie; staring at texts and pictures she had. Torturing herself. She vagly heard the front door go before it was answered. Sian couldn't make out who it was but the door was soon shut and out of curiously Sian got up and headed to look out of the window just in time to see Sophie walking from her front yard. Their eyes met as Sophie turned to Sian window. Sian wanted nothing more than to run out to the brunette but she couldn’t she was too fragile at the moment. Sian noticed Sophie’s eyes were also red and the look of regret and misery that was penned in them. Perhaps Sophie was feeling just as bad. Probs just because she got caught, Sian thought bitterly to herself. Sian broke eyes contact and shut her curtains, she couldn’t stand to look at Sophie anymore as the feeling of love over came before the words “using Sian to get back at Rosie” washed through her reducing the blonde to tears once again. It was going to be a long few weeks.
Sophie lay on her bed unable to believe what had happened. Everything had been going to perfect. She had tried texting Sian with no reply explaining that it wasn’t like that and that they should talk but she got no reply. She had even tried calling but her call got diverted everytime. It was her own fault and Sophie knew she deserved this. She just hoped that she could get the chance to talk to Sian to explain though she couldn’t blame Sian for being angry.
Sophie woke early and headed for training. She had been looking forward to it but now the only thing she wanted to do was to make it up with Sian. Sophie threw herself into the training session, giving her mind something to concentrate on, taking her anger out. And it worked. For a while. Until after training when her first instinct was still to text Sian and let her know how it went. Sophie scowled at herself making up her mind that she was going to see Sian. Sophie pulled up outside determined to get the blonde to listen, she only had to wait a few minutes before sians dad answered immediately turning Sophie into a bumbling wreck.
“Eh ....is...eh Sian home?”
“Yes but ive been told she don’t want to see you so get lost” Sian’s dad spat. Sophie was perplexed that her was actually doing something for his daughter usually he didn’t care. She was about to argue back and demand to see Sian when the door was slammed in her face. The idea of ringing again until she got to see Sian ran through her but she bottled it and walked away realising she would have to take a different approach especially as sians dad scared the shit out of her. School would be the best place she can’t avoid her forever Sophie concluded. Sophie turned to face sians window feeling eyes upon her burning a hole in her back. Even with puffy eyes she still took Sophie breath away. Guilt and sadness instantly washed through Sophie knowing that it was her that had caused the hurt and pain to the blonde. All too soon Sian looked away shutting the curtains. Sophie sighed and walked to the car, tears welling in her eyes. It was going to be a long few weeks.
Rating - for all - few swear words tho :O
Description - Sophie wants payback, got the idea from Nayley of OTH!
Suffering from writer block... i know were i want this to go but cant seem to get it words. So frustrating! anyways this part may seem like a repeat as im taking it from Sian aspect then from Sophies :)
Sian fell into bed exhausted from crying, it was all she had done since she had come home. Sophie had tried calling on numerous occasions but Sian had rejected every one, she couldn’t bear to listen to Sophie right now. Not when her heart was breaking. She woke on Sunday feeling slightly better until the reality of last night hit her and the sobs started, she never knew someone could make you feel this way; like your whole world had caved in. She was angry at herself for allowing herself to feel for Sophie; all the time they had spent together they couldn’t have all been a lie surely? Sian wasn’t sure what was and what wasn’t genuine when it came to the sol called relationship she had with Sophie. She wanted to believe that it was genuine but part of her didn’t; it has all seemed so cruel. More hours passed and Sian hadn’t moved at all. A soft knock was heard before Rosie appeared in the room. Rosie took in Sian’s appearance; she looked terrible, her eyes were red and puffy and her hair was unkept and everywhere. Not a good look in Rosie’s opinion. Rosie was going to kill Sophie when she got her hands on her. Rosie made her way over to Sian putting her arms around Sian pulling her in for a hug as sobs erupted from the blonde again. She tried comforting Sian as she let her emotions out she had never seen Sian in such a state and her reassurance of that it couldnt have all been a lie fell on death ears. She couldn’t believe her own sister could sink so low
“Listen Sian your too good for Sophie, she doesn’t deserve you, you are the nicest, sweetest, most amazing person I know and anyone will be lucky to have you. Please don’t doubt that. Rosie tried reassuring but Sian just sobbed harder.
“Rosie I’m a fool! And the worst part is I still love her” Sian cried, it was the first time she had admitted to anyone that she loved Sophie and Rosie was taken aback at her friends confession. Love. She had never seen like this. A few hours later and Sian was alone again with just her thoughts of Sophie; staring at texts and pictures she had. Torturing herself. She vagly heard the front door go before it was answered. Sian couldn't make out who it was but the door was soon shut and out of curiously Sian got up and headed to look out of the window just in time to see Sophie walking from her front yard. Their eyes met as Sophie turned to Sian window. Sian wanted nothing more than to run out to the brunette but she couldn’t she was too fragile at the moment. Sian noticed Sophie’s eyes were also red and the look of regret and misery that was penned in them. Perhaps Sophie was feeling just as bad. Probs just because she got caught, Sian thought bitterly to herself. Sian broke eyes contact and shut her curtains, she couldn’t stand to look at Sophie anymore as the feeling of love over came before the words “using Sian to get back at Rosie” washed through her reducing the blonde to tears once again. It was going to be a long few weeks.
Sophie lay on her bed unable to believe what had happened. Everything had been going to perfect. She had tried texting Sian with no reply explaining that it wasn’t like that and that they should talk but she got no reply. She had even tried calling but her call got diverted everytime. It was her own fault and Sophie knew she deserved this. She just hoped that she could get the chance to talk to Sian to explain though she couldn’t blame Sian for being angry.
Sophie woke early and headed for training. She had been looking forward to it but now the only thing she wanted to do was to make it up with Sian. Sophie threw herself into the training session, giving her mind something to concentrate on, taking her anger out. And it worked. For a while. Until after training when her first instinct was still to text Sian and let her know how it went. Sophie scowled at herself making up her mind that she was going to see Sian. Sophie pulled up outside determined to get the blonde to listen, she only had to wait a few minutes before sians dad answered immediately turning Sophie into a bumbling wreck.
“Eh ....is...eh Sian home?”
“Yes but ive been told she don’t want to see you so get lost” Sian’s dad spat. Sophie was perplexed that her was actually doing something for his daughter usually he didn’t care. She was about to argue back and demand to see Sian when the door was slammed in her face. The idea of ringing again until she got to see Sian ran through her but she bottled it and walked away realising she would have to take a different approach especially as sians dad scared the shit out of her. School would be the best place she can’t avoid her forever Sophie concluded. Sophie turned to face sians window feeling eyes upon her burning a hole in her back. Even with puffy eyes she still took Sophie breath away. Guilt and sadness instantly washed through Sophie knowing that it was her that had caused the hurt and pain to the blonde. All too soon Sian looked away shutting the curtains. Sophie sighed and walked to the car, tears welling in her eyes. It was going to be a long few weeks.