I dont wanna be chapter 11
Title - I dont wanna be
Rating - for all.
Description - Sophie wants payback, got the idea from Nayley of OTH!
Again for everyone - expecially those of you who pestered for the update...you know who you are ;) ! <3
Right guys word of warning I’m not going to be able to update this till next week as I’m away all weekend, but I’ve kinda got half the next part written so hopefully it wont take too long. Thanks for reading! Love you guys xx
Sophie woke to find the room spinning; it was a full 5 minutes before it came into focus and Sophie felt sick. It was as if she had just stepped off a very fast roundabout. Sophie looked around the room taking in her bearings, sitting up she felt a pain shoot through her head along with a nauseous feeling, she tried to swallow but her throat was dry; desperately craving a liquid of some kind, though the idea of water seemed to make her stomach churn.
A photo of a blonde girl stood on the bedside cabinet and Sophie instantly recognised that she was in Sian’s room. Sophie groaned unable to recall the events of last night. What the hell happened? The last thing she remembered was a drinking game with. ...Jason was it? Or Katy? Getting completely wasted had seemed like a great idea at the time but now Sophie was regretting it, not only did she have a banging hangover but she also had almost no recollection of the previous night. Hoping that she didn’t make an utter fool of herself and mess up things with Sian further Sophie slowly got out of bed, dressing in her outfit from last night. Classy. As soon as Sophie stood up she had the feeling of vertigo and had to grab the wall for support.
Making her way downstairs to the kitchen not quite sure what to expect she saw Sian sat at the table sipping on a tea and reading the paper. Sophie cautiously made her way over still unsure of what to expect or to say.
“Morning” she croaked her voice still dry, taking a seat at the table Sian thrust a bottle of Coke across the table without looking at Sophie who muttered thanks and drank the Coke with gratitude instantly feeling better.
Sian kept her eyes on the paper nit wanting to make eye contact with the brunette for fear of what might happen; when Sophie had said those words last night Sian had been in heaven, but she wasn’t sure if it was the drink talking and thus wanted to wait and see if the brunette would broach the subject or even remember for that matter.
“Erm thanks for last night” Sophie nervously said trying to ease the tension and get the blondes attention.
“No problem” Sian replied still not looking up from her paper. Sophie despretlay wanted to talk to the blonde but couldn’t find the right words to say. She guzzled more coke trying to rid the try feeling in her mouth, the uneasy feeling around the room lingered and needing something to do Sophie nervously played with her coke bottle.
“Sian” Sophie tried again. Sian continued to stare at her paper. She had read the same line multiple times trying to keep her focus from the brunette opposite not taking in a word of what she was reading, she could feel her resolve softening every time Sophie said her name. Sophie had mustered up the courage after one final swig of her coke ready to tell the blonde everything, how she felt, her reasons for drinking and that she would leave her alone if that was what she wished when the front door slammed shut making them both jump. Sian looked up from her paper as Rosie appeared in the kitchen “Sian babes!” Rosie’s face instantly turned to thunder when she saw Sophie, causing Sophie to shift uncomfortably under the glare.
“What is she doing here?” Rosie spat through gritted teeth quiet unable to believe the scene in front of her.
“Sian don’t tell me you have been so stupid to let this user back into your life” Sian opened her mouth to speak but was cut off by Sophie.
“Rosie don’t have a go as Sian, she was only looking out for me. I had a bit too much to drink last night okay” Sophie was now on her feet and in full rant mode. No time like the present she thought as she continued her rant “and to get it out in the open while use are both here. No she hasn’t forgiven me and I don’t blame her. What I did was wrong and horrible. But everything I told u Sian wasn’t a lie” Sophie turned so she was only facing Sian “if you were ever willing to forgive me Sian I would never make the same mistake twice, you are the most amazing person I have ever had the privilege to have know, but if u want me to leave you alone I will”
Sian felt her tear ducks swell. Rosie stared at her sister, seeing the hurt in her eyes for what she had done but also the truth about everything she had said. Rosie had Sophie all wrong. Sophie looked at Sian silently pleading with her to ask her to say and tell her they could talk it through but it never came.
“well I better go” Sophie sadly said “take care of her Rosie your lucky to have her, sorry to have put use both through this” Sophie continued heading to the door.
Sian wanted to shout out to her and tell her to stay;
“You’ve to call Katy” she croaked out. Sophie turned and gave Sian one last sad smile before leaving.
A tear rolled down sians face, she was so conflicted.
“Go after her Sian” she heard Rosie say “she really means it. I duno how but I can just tell” Rosie hugged Sian. Sian hugged Rosie back as more tears escaped “I can’t”
“Why not?”
“I’m afraid” Sian admitted
“Sian, love isn’t easy, I can see you love her, your never more happier than when your with Sophie and same with her, she actually becomes bearable” Sian chuckled at this. “Be brave, take a chance otherwise you’ll always wonder what if”
Sian looked at Rosie
“Since wen did you become so insightful?” she asked with a slight laugh. Rosie placed a kiss on sians forehead
“If I knew I’d tell you. Plus if she mess’s this up she really will have me to deal with. Now go get your girl”
Sian ran down the street, she had never been much of an athlete and was instantly panting. The rain was pouring down giving her the apreance of a drowned rat. She caught a glimce of long dark hair slightly in front of her.
“Sophie...Sophie...SOPHIE” she shouted fearing she wouldn’t turn round, her voice being drowned out by the rain.
Sophie distantly heard her name being called and turned out of curiosity. She couldn’t believe it Sian was running towards her. Sophie froze unsure if she was dreaming, as the rain continued to battle down,
“Sian what are you doing here” she asked as Sian stopped in front of her panting
“I...J..Just thought I should give u a chance to explain”
Sophie couldn’t believe she had been given this chance. It was her silver lining and she wasn’t going to mess it up. Taking the blondes hand she looked lovingly into her eyes. Sian wanted to take her hand back but she suddenly felt a warmth go through her body. She had missed this.
“Sian I..I know I hurt you. And I’m sorry. I’m sorry for the way we started out but I don’t regret it” Sian instantly recoiled her hand. “No wait if you’ll listen to me” Sophie took her hand again “I don’t regret it because then I probably wouldn’t have got to know you. The best thing that’s ever happend to me. I’m actually scared at how much you mean to me, I’ve never felt like this” Sian smiled at Sophie.
“So what’s your problem then Sophie? Why did u get in such a state last night?”
Sophie decided to speak from the heart; get it all off her chest.
“Do you want to know what my problem is?” she asked not breaking eye contact with Sian and taking a deep breath.
“I love you. I love your name, I love the way you look at me. I love the feelings you give me. I love your gorgeous smile. I love the way I can be having the worse day of my life and seeing you completely changes my mood. That is my problem Sian. That’s why I got splattered last night to numb the pain I felt of losing you”
Sian was stunned. The rain continued to batter down on them. Nerves washed through Sophie as she waited for sins reaction. Sophie felt free after finally telling Sian how she felt. Sophie licked her lips her throat feeling dry again. Sian watched and took one step towards Sophie closing the gap, placing Sophie’s hand on her waist and her lips on hers. Sophie latterly felt like she was in heaven. They kissed passionately as the rain continued to lash down making up for lost time, both grinning into the kiss. After an eternity they broke apart, not taking their eyes from each other.
“I love you too Sophie so much” Sian breathed. Sophie grinned; it was all she had ever wanted to hear. “I already knew you loved me”
Sophie cocked her head to the side “oh ay”
“You told me last night” Sian giggled “though I thought it might have been the drink talking”
Sophie took Sian’s lips again. “A drunk persons words are a sober persons thoughts” she kissed Sian again “I’m never letting you go. You’re stuck with me Sian powers”
Sian laughed once again “there’s no one else I would rather be stuck with”
Sian entwined their fingers as Sophie wrapped an arm around her.
“Lets get back to mine don’t want you to catch a cold and jacks missed you” she breathed to the blonde.
“Just jack?” she quizzed? Sophie kissed her again playing with her tongue.
“Nope not just jack” she whispered as drops of rain slid from their faces and leading the way to her house. Even on this rainy day it was true; every cloud did have a silver lining. And both Sophie and Sian had found that sometimes you had to go through something to get to something and this something was love.
Rating - for all.
Description - Sophie wants payback, got the idea from Nayley of OTH!
Again for everyone - expecially those of you who pestered for the update...you know who you are ;) ! <3
Right guys word of warning I’m not going to be able to update this till next week as I’m away all weekend, but I’ve kinda got half the next part written so hopefully it wont take too long. Thanks for reading! Love you guys xx
Sophie woke to find the room spinning; it was a full 5 minutes before it came into focus and Sophie felt sick. It was as if she had just stepped off a very fast roundabout. Sophie looked around the room taking in her bearings, sitting up she felt a pain shoot through her head along with a nauseous feeling, she tried to swallow but her throat was dry; desperately craving a liquid of some kind, though the idea of water seemed to make her stomach churn.
A photo of a blonde girl stood on the bedside cabinet and Sophie instantly recognised that she was in Sian’s room. Sophie groaned unable to recall the events of last night. What the hell happened? The last thing she remembered was a drinking game with. ...Jason was it? Or Katy? Getting completely wasted had seemed like a great idea at the time but now Sophie was regretting it, not only did she have a banging hangover but she also had almost no recollection of the previous night. Hoping that she didn’t make an utter fool of herself and mess up things with Sian further Sophie slowly got out of bed, dressing in her outfit from last night. Classy. As soon as Sophie stood up she had the feeling of vertigo and had to grab the wall for support.
Making her way downstairs to the kitchen not quite sure what to expect she saw Sian sat at the table sipping on a tea and reading the paper. Sophie cautiously made her way over still unsure of what to expect or to say.
“Morning” she croaked her voice still dry, taking a seat at the table Sian thrust a bottle of Coke across the table without looking at Sophie who muttered thanks and drank the Coke with gratitude instantly feeling better.
Sian kept her eyes on the paper nit wanting to make eye contact with the brunette for fear of what might happen; when Sophie had said those words last night Sian had been in heaven, but she wasn’t sure if it was the drink talking and thus wanted to wait and see if the brunette would broach the subject or even remember for that matter.
“Erm thanks for last night” Sophie nervously said trying to ease the tension and get the blondes attention.
“No problem” Sian replied still not looking up from her paper. Sophie despretlay wanted to talk to the blonde but couldn’t find the right words to say. She guzzled more coke trying to rid the try feeling in her mouth, the uneasy feeling around the room lingered and needing something to do Sophie nervously played with her coke bottle.
“Sian” Sophie tried again. Sian continued to stare at her paper. She had read the same line multiple times trying to keep her focus from the brunette opposite not taking in a word of what she was reading, she could feel her resolve softening every time Sophie said her name. Sophie had mustered up the courage after one final swig of her coke ready to tell the blonde everything, how she felt, her reasons for drinking and that she would leave her alone if that was what she wished when the front door slammed shut making them both jump. Sian looked up from her paper as Rosie appeared in the kitchen “Sian babes!” Rosie’s face instantly turned to thunder when she saw Sophie, causing Sophie to shift uncomfortably under the glare.
“What is she doing here?” Rosie spat through gritted teeth quiet unable to believe the scene in front of her.
“Sian don’t tell me you have been so stupid to let this user back into your life” Sian opened her mouth to speak but was cut off by Sophie.
“Rosie don’t have a go as Sian, she was only looking out for me. I had a bit too much to drink last night okay” Sophie was now on her feet and in full rant mode. No time like the present she thought as she continued her rant “and to get it out in the open while use are both here. No she hasn’t forgiven me and I don’t blame her. What I did was wrong and horrible. But everything I told u Sian wasn’t a lie” Sophie turned so she was only facing Sian “if you were ever willing to forgive me Sian I would never make the same mistake twice, you are the most amazing person I have ever had the privilege to have know, but if u want me to leave you alone I will”
Sian felt her tear ducks swell. Rosie stared at her sister, seeing the hurt in her eyes for what she had done but also the truth about everything she had said. Rosie had Sophie all wrong. Sophie looked at Sian silently pleading with her to ask her to say and tell her they could talk it through but it never came.
“well I better go” Sophie sadly said “take care of her Rosie your lucky to have her, sorry to have put use both through this” Sophie continued heading to the door.
Sian wanted to shout out to her and tell her to stay;
“You’ve to call Katy” she croaked out. Sophie turned and gave Sian one last sad smile before leaving.
A tear rolled down sians face, she was so conflicted.
“Go after her Sian” she heard Rosie say “she really means it. I duno how but I can just tell” Rosie hugged Sian. Sian hugged Rosie back as more tears escaped “I can’t”
“Why not?”
“I’m afraid” Sian admitted
“Sian, love isn’t easy, I can see you love her, your never more happier than when your with Sophie and same with her, she actually becomes bearable” Sian chuckled at this. “Be brave, take a chance otherwise you’ll always wonder what if”
Sian looked at Rosie
“Since wen did you become so insightful?” she asked with a slight laugh. Rosie placed a kiss on sians forehead
“If I knew I’d tell you. Plus if she mess’s this up she really will have me to deal with. Now go get your girl”
Sian ran down the street, she had never been much of an athlete and was instantly panting. The rain was pouring down giving her the apreance of a drowned rat. She caught a glimce of long dark hair slightly in front of her.
“Sophie...Sophie...SOPHIE” she shouted fearing she wouldn’t turn round, her voice being drowned out by the rain.
Sophie distantly heard her name being called and turned out of curiosity. She couldn’t believe it Sian was running towards her. Sophie froze unsure if she was dreaming, as the rain continued to battle down,
“Sian what are you doing here” she asked as Sian stopped in front of her panting
“I...J..Just thought I should give u a chance to explain”
Sophie couldn’t believe she had been given this chance. It was her silver lining and she wasn’t going to mess it up. Taking the blondes hand she looked lovingly into her eyes. Sian wanted to take her hand back but she suddenly felt a warmth go through her body. She had missed this.
“Sian I..I know I hurt you. And I’m sorry. I’m sorry for the way we started out but I don’t regret it” Sian instantly recoiled her hand. “No wait if you’ll listen to me” Sophie took her hand again “I don’t regret it because then I probably wouldn’t have got to know you. The best thing that’s ever happend to me. I’m actually scared at how much you mean to me, I’ve never felt like this” Sian smiled at Sophie.
“So what’s your problem then Sophie? Why did u get in such a state last night?”
Sophie decided to speak from the heart; get it all off her chest.
“Do you want to know what my problem is?” she asked not breaking eye contact with Sian and taking a deep breath.
“I love you. I love your name, I love the way you look at me. I love the feelings you give me. I love your gorgeous smile. I love the way I can be having the worse day of my life and seeing you completely changes my mood. That is my problem Sian. That’s why I got splattered last night to numb the pain I felt of losing you”
Sian was stunned. The rain continued to batter down on them. Nerves washed through Sophie as she waited for sins reaction. Sophie felt free after finally telling Sian how she felt. Sophie licked her lips her throat feeling dry again. Sian watched and took one step towards Sophie closing the gap, placing Sophie’s hand on her waist and her lips on hers. Sophie latterly felt like she was in heaven. They kissed passionately as the rain continued to lash down making up for lost time, both grinning into the kiss. After an eternity they broke apart, not taking their eyes from each other.
“I love you too Sophie so much” Sian breathed. Sophie grinned; it was all she had ever wanted to hear. “I already knew you loved me”
Sophie cocked her head to the side “oh ay”
“You told me last night” Sian giggled “though I thought it might have been the drink talking”
Sophie took Sian’s lips again. “A drunk persons words are a sober persons thoughts” she kissed Sian again “I’m never letting you go. You’re stuck with me Sian powers”
Sian laughed once again “there’s no one else I would rather be stuck with”
Sian entwined their fingers as Sophie wrapped an arm around her.
“Lets get back to mine don’t want you to catch a cold and jacks missed you” she breathed to the blonde.
“Just jack?” she quizzed? Sophie kissed her again playing with her tongue.
“Nope not just jack” she whispered as drops of rain slid from their faces and leading the way to her house. Even on this rainy day it was true; every cloud did have a silver lining. And both Sophie and Sian had found that sometimes you had to go through something to get to something and this something was love.