Ok so while I am realizing that I am incredibly stressed with work from school, hours from work, and life in general I have come to a conclusion ( Read more... )

are awesome.... not so much. Just had the most vivid one yet. I remember everything now. It was all really fuzzy with clear parts here and there. But I remember now. Every slimy gross painful detail. How it made me feel, how I forgot. Everything. I can't believe it took this long but i r

So i forgot how awesome relaxing and being at peace felt.

The last three weeks have been SO stressful and now today felt amazing. This week i do not have to work, which makes me So happy.  A little mini vacation. Yay me.

I just want to clean, have fun, and enjoy myself this next week.

Life is good, let the stress just roll off my shoulders :)

Working 2 jobs is really getting to me. I am twice as stressed for the littlest things. I even almost lost my cool with a customer at work tonight. It was not good. I just need to manage stress better i suppose ( Read more... )

So we're officially done. I love him, more than i can really admit to myself, or to him. But i can't be with him if i know he's never going to want to be with just me. I know he loves me more than anyone else. And theoretically that should be enough. But there is something to be said about having the security and all that which comes with a ( Read more... )

Schools out ( Read more... )

So i just heard they were closing UMASS due to the swine flu. This is starting to get kinda scary. Hopefully nothing too bad will happen...... I don't look sexy in a surgical mask. hahahahahhaha.

oh and death is bad too.

Finals suck balls. I can't wait till all this shit is over.

 I am lonely as fuck ( Read more... )

 Is it so wrong to want someone to want me. Just me. Like i know i have josh, and that he loves me and what not. But like i sometimes just want someone to want me and just me. I want someone to tell me how cute i am, or meet me in a group and pick me out to be the attractive one. Most of my friends get picked out as the attractive one, i am never ( Read more... )

You're not the first girl
To draw her fears on her arms
In hopes to capture
All the memories that hunted you down
You can sew your lips shut
With your heart strings
Cause God knows that you don't need them to hold yourself together

But don't look down because I don't know
Falling is fatal from this height I know
I should have never held you up
This high, ( Read more... )