i love you megan...i don't know what else to stay...hang in there...i am sure both your parents appericate you being strong for them...I am glad you have phil...you guys are definetly good for each other...Stay strong.
i could say the cliche, it will get better, blah blah blah. but i won't cos, what if in reality terms, it doesn't, not in the sense that most people would expect. this is what i say. embrace it. embrace your dad, your mom, your sisters, phil. embrace life. this is the best opportunity that you have to create something. a home, or any sort of stable life isn't going to blatantly show up at your doorstep. but i mean, life should be an adventure. thats bad parts, and scary parts, and amazing parts. the most interesting, talented, loving people i know haven't had it easy. they don't take things for granted like so many of us have. and you're one of the best people i know. i'm rambling and its late and i have no idea what i'm saying anymore.
but i miss you. and i wish i saw you more. you know my number.
I wish I had some moving, motivational, big sisterish thing to say....but I don't. I guess it's always been in the back of my head that Mom and Dad might seperate someday....but, you know.....you are never ready for that. I mean, you are supposed to look at your parents and see love, and you are supposed to learn about relationships from them......but instead of thinking "I want a relationship like my parents have," I am thinking "I never want to end up like my parents." That is sad to me. I think that, somewhere in the back of my mind, I am a little mad at them for it. Both of them. Mad at Mom for marrying him when she didn't love him...and mad at Dad for fucking up so many times. But at the same time, I love them both so much....and I feel like I am kind of stuck in the middle. I feel sad that I don't see Dad anymore. I would go see him, but I am afraid to meet this woman....and I don't know what to say to Dad....and I am so far away now. Anyway...I am so glad that you are happy with Phil. You deserve it. I know you will stay strong
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I think that our parents are two of the strongest people that I know. They have been through a lot...
I know that they each feel they've messed up... I think they both wish they had done something different... I think they both have regrets...
But I don't think they should.
I wouldn't mind being like them at all.
Yeah... not in the relationship department, I suppose...
but, they have so many good qualities. We just kinda take them for granted. We kind look past how hard they have tried just to hardly make it through life. Can you imagine the things that go through their minds?
I just think we need to give them a reason to be proud. Prove that everything they have done wasnt just a waste. They didnt mess up anywhere.
It's our turn to start taking care of them i think. Or at least just taking care of ourselves.
I love you Meg!!!freakinbeanAugust 14 2005, 11:07:22 UTC
Well... i dont know what to tell you i do know how you feel tho... not knowing what to do or where to go. When my mom wanted me to move back in with her i felt like that... i felt kind of like i had to decide which one i loved more... but its not like that at all. They both know that you love them.... We have all been through some tough shit in the recent past and we are slowly moving through it like champions... just keep going... keep breathing... get some sleep every once in a while... It will never get "better" from now on your parents are always going to be divorced. But it will get easier.. and after a while it will be the norm. You just need to make it to the part when it becomes normal... and know that until then you have a billion people who love you to death that you can put your head on any time you need to.
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but i won't cos, what if in reality terms, it doesn't, not in the sense that most people would expect.
this is what i say.
embrace it. embrace your dad, your mom, your sisters, phil.
embrace life. this is the best opportunity that you have to create something.
a home, or any sort of stable life isn't going to blatantly show up at your doorstep.
but i mean, life should be an adventure. thats bad parts, and scary parts, and amazing parts.
the most interesting, talented, loving people i know haven't had it easy.
they don't take things for granted like so many of us have.
and you're one of the best people i know.
i'm rambling and its late and i have no idea what i'm saying anymore.
but i miss you. and i wish i saw you more.
you know my number.
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I think that our parents are two of the strongest people that I know.
They have been through a lot...
I know that they each feel they've messed up...
I think they both wish they had done something different...
I think they both have regrets...
But I don't think they should.
I wouldn't mind being like them at all.
Yeah... not in the relationship department, I suppose...
but, they have so many good qualities.
We just kinda take them for granted.
We kind look past how hard they have tried just to hardly make it through life.
Can you imagine the things that go through their minds?
I just think we need to give them a reason to be proud.
Prove that everything they have done wasnt just a waste.
They didnt mess up anywhere.
It's our turn to start taking care of them i think.
Or at least just taking care of ourselves.
They deserve it.
<3
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