So, for the past week or so I've been really kind of down. Mostly, Andrew has been on my mind a lot. Fall always reminds me of him. It's the only season I knew him in.

Saturday and Sunday, though, were especially bad. I worked 12-8 both days, and the weather was just really nice, fall weather... for some reason Andrew was weighing really heavy on ( Read more... )

So, school has been pretty crazy. I've been feeling overwhelmed as of late. I wouldn't go so far as saying that the stuff is crazy HARD.. It's honestly just the volume of material that is expected from us that makes it so difficult. We have 15 weeks to learn the basics on ALL of the nuclear imaging and therapy techniques (Pulmonary, Bone/ ( Read more... )

So, this is the last week of my last summer for 2 years. =0 ( Read more... )

Sooo lately I have been thinking about life and how it is currently, and how I may prefer it to be. I have pondered a few things that I am not exactly proud of. I have had some feelings that I don't really understand. And yet I do... perhaps I just don't want to admitt their true origins to myself.

Butterflies... How I've missed them.

It is ( Read more... )

So, I went to TJ's graduation last night. It was... nice. Very loooong. I left with a migrain, but the cause was worth it.

Amanda Weaver invited me to go along with her mom, dad, brother, and Steven Frietas. I think she invited Steven and I to kind of have a piece of Andrew there watching her graduate, you know? Even though I think he was there ( Read more... )

A poem I wrote a while back which I think suites my current mood:

I lost love.
Hope was forgotten...
left in resentment. 
Life was watercolored;
drowning in grey memory.

Until you.

I can smile for being scared.
I fear you.
The loss of you. 
The familiar pain of
heartache.

It sits on my shoulder,
waiting.
Counting time.

There is no no time.

There is only now.

.. ( Read more... )

So, I've been feeling a little down here lately ( Read more... )

So.... it's been 2 years since I've posted on livejournal. Ashley Hoffman made me think about it through her recent bulletin on Myspace. How is everyone? I miss seeing you guys.  I didn't realize anyone still came one here. hah ( Read more... )

...I have grown to realize so much...
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I don't have many friends.

This is no fault of yours. (whoever you may be)

..I think a little blame belongs to me...
but, mostly...
we just are not the same people.
Never were.

I'm sure you can admit that.

I never truly was understood.
I never truly fit in.
I ( Read more... )

I Love this song.
...Something about it.
It's the shit.

Crazy by Gnarls Barkley:

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind.
There was something so pleasant about that place..
Even your emotions had an echo and so much space.

And when you're out there without care
Yeah I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I ( Read more... )