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SoulS In ShadowS: How can anyone who dwells on internet relationships be realistic?
ckorrian: I guess I've never been realistic then, because every serious relationship has been on the internet...
SoulS In ShadowS: I love you so much, Luther.. I do..
And it burns so much knowing that I can't be with you how I want to right now..
How much I want to be able to wake up every morning and see you...
Arg. How can you love me? I'm such a stupid girl. I don't try to hurt people but I do.. Specially the ones I love...
And I seem to always drag people down when I am down..
And I don't want to do that to you.
ckorrian: You're not stupid, sweetie. Believe me, I know how much it hurts myself.
ckorrian: I get depressed about it. Hell, I sometimes don't know why you love a loser like me.
SoulS In ShadowS: Luther.. I'm so afraid..
I'm terrified of doing something and losing you..
SoulS In ShadowS: You're certainly not a loser.
And I don't want you thinking you are.
ckorrian: Don't be scared of that, Amanda. I honestly can't think of anything you could do to lose me.
ckorrian: /smiles at your kindness/
SoulS In ShadowS: I can't help but be scared.
Because loving someone always makes me so insecure.
And even though deep in my heart I don't believe you ever would find someone else and leave me for them.. but it is another thing that just claws at my mind. Eats me from the inside out.
ckorrian: The funny thing is, when I'm taken, I'm even less "popular" than when I'm single (which is to say hardly anybody is romantically interested in me).
ckorrian: I'm not the kind of guy who quits when the going gets tough. And really, I know how good I have it with you and wouldn't chase someone and fuck everything up. I have your genuine love and nobody can convince me that another deserves my love more than you.
SoulS In ShadowS: I know after we broke up the first and how I kinda didn't talk to you for awhile.. I felt so bad about it... I couldn't face you for awhile..
And when I did talk to you again.. I really realized how stupid I was for being scared.
You're so special and are beyond amazing with me. I know you'd never do a damn thing to hurt me.
ckorrian: Tuck that in the back of your mind about how you now know you don't have to be afraid, that I will always be here for you.
ckorrian: /hug/
SoulS In ShadowS: /hugs./
I know I don't have to.. but I do.
ckorrian: Honestly? We could break up a million times and I'd take you back every time.
ckorrian: I love YOU and you alone, forever Amanda.
SoulS In ShadowS: /cries a bit../
God I love you..
ckorrian: /wipes away your tears, then gently holds your face in his hands and kisses your forehead/
SoulS In ShadowS: /smiles, nuzzling your hands./
Luther Daniel Frisch.. I love you for life.
ckorrian: I love you forever Amanda Michelle Carr.
ckorrian: I guess I've never been realistic then, because every serious relationship has been on the internet...
SoulS In ShadowS: I love you so much, Luther.. I do..
And it burns so much knowing that I can't be with you how I want to right now..
How much I want to be able to wake up every morning and see you...
Arg. How can you love me? I'm such a stupid girl. I don't try to hurt people but I do.. Specially the ones I love...
And I seem to always drag people down when I am down..
And I don't want to do that to you.
ckorrian: You're not stupid, sweetie. Believe me, I know how much it hurts myself.
ckorrian: I get depressed about it. Hell, I sometimes don't know why you love a loser like me.
SoulS In ShadowS: Luther.. I'm so afraid..
I'm terrified of doing something and losing you..
SoulS In ShadowS: You're certainly not a loser.
And I don't want you thinking you are.
ckorrian: Don't be scared of that, Amanda. I honestly can't think of anything you could do to lose me.
ckorrian: /smiles at your kindness/
SoulS In ShadowS: I can't help but be scared.
Because loving someone always makes me so insecure.
And even though deep in my heart I don't believe you ever would find someone else and leave me for them.. but it is another thing that just claws at my mind. Eats me from the inside out.
ckorrian: The funny thing is, when I'm taken, I'm even less "popular" than when I'm single (which is to say hardly anybody is romantically interested in me).
ckorrian: I'm not the kind of guy who quits when the going gets tough. And really, I know how good I have it with you and wouldn't chase someone and fuck everything up. I have your genuine love and nobody can convince me that another deserves my love more than you.
SoulS In ShadowS: I know after we broke up the first and how I kinda didn't talk to you for awhile.. I felt so bad about it... I couldn't face you for awhile..
And when I did talk to you again.. I really realized how stupid I was for being scared.
You're so special and are beyond amazing with me. I know you'd never do a damn thing to hurt me.
ckorrian: Tuck that in the back of your mind about how you now know you don't have to be afraid, that I will always be here for you.
ckorrian: /hug/
SoulS In ShadowS: /hugs./
I know I don't have to.. but I do.
ckorrian: Honestly? We could break up a million times and I'd take you back every time.
ckorrian: I love YOU and you alone, forever Amanda.
SoulS In ShadowS: /cries a bit../
God I love you..
ckorrian: /wipes away your tears, then gently holds your face in his hands and kisses your forehead/
SoulS In ShadowS: /smiles, nuzzling your hands./
Luther Daniel Frisch.. I love you for life.
ckorrian: I love you forever Amanda Michelle Carr.