{33}Scared {Saga/Shou} - Chapter 3
I sighed heavily as I entered the rehearsal room, feeling a bit tired. The lives were coming to an end; finally, I could have my well deserved break. It’s not that I don’t favor lives, I really love it, but there comes a time when you get tired of it. That’s what’s happening now.
I scanned the whole room, noticing I was the only one here. It was already 11 o’clock. Sighing again, I headed for the sofa. It didn’t take a long time for the rest of the band to appear.
“Ohayou Shou,” Tora said, taking a place next o me.
“Ohayou guys”, I greeted them.
“Shou, you look a little tired, are you alright?” our drummer asked, a little worried, as it was unusual to see me like this. “Yes, I’m fine, I just need a little break to restore my energy,”
“Yeah, we all need a rest, I can’t wait for our break,” he said with a little laugh. We smiled at his comment, because he was right in the end.
“Hey by the way, have you heard the rumors?”Our drummer spoke again.
“What rumors?” I asked showing interest in what he was going to say. “It looks like Saga-san has left his band,” he said while he laid his torso on the drum set.
“What! Are you serious?” I asked, shocked by the information. Why would Saga want to quit his band?
“Those rumors are true,” our bassist said for the first time since he came into the room, “It looks like he left the band a few days ago, because all their live performances were cancel led” he said, taking a seat on one of the chairs.
“How did you find out about this?” Tora asked, ever the curious one. “I was talking to one of their guitarist, and he told me that they were looking for a new bassist because Saga-san said that he would be leaving. And that’s not all, it looks like this is the second time he leaves a band in less than year. ”
We all got shocked at what he told us. How was it possible to leave two bands in less than a year?
“Whoa…” was the only thing Tora could say “Yeah I know. He’s really impressive, and they still don’t know why he left the band.”
I still couldn’t believe at what he told us, it was too shocking, and I remember the time when I met him on the ramen stand. He didn’t look like the sort to quit a band in a short period of time, more or less a year. But appearances could never be trusted.
“I think we should start practice now.” Tora announced, after a few minutes of silence. He stood up from his seat and took his guitar to plug it to the amp. “Hai, Tora is right, we should start right now.” our bassist said also standing up and taking his place. “Ok” I said, getting up even though I still felt tired and headed to my mike stand, still with the news lingering in my mind.
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The rehearsal was over, but Tora and I were still in the room. “So.. what are we going to do now Shou?” he asked, going to the sofa.
“What do you mean?” I asked, although knowing exactly what he meant. “Shou, please stop pretending that you don’t know, because I know you get exactly what I mean.” I sighed heavily at what he had said, he was right, I did know of what he was talking about.
“So…” he said. “I don’t know,” I said, leaning my head on the sofa. “What do you mean that you don’t know?” he asked.
“It’s just that I don’t know what are we going to do now, I really enjoy being with them, but I don’t imagine myself in the future with them,” I said, looking up at the ceiling “but what about you?” I asked, facing him.
“Hmm, I really don’t imagine myself with them in the long run, too. It seems we share the same thought.” Tora said, looking at his hand for a moment before looking up. “I see, so... it looks like a future as band with them isn’t promising.” I said.
This was one thing we’ve all been thinking about lately, but we couldn’t strike up the courage to suggest it to the other guys. It’s t true that we felt good being with them in the same band, but I can’t imagine a future as a band with them, no matter how much I tried to imagine it.
“So what are we going to do, disband or something?” I asked. “I truly don’t know” Tora said, getting up and taking his guitar from the side. “But do you want to disband?” he asked, looking at me directly.
“To tell you the truth, I wouldn’t mind quitting the band if that would make us evolve into better musicians” I said. “So it’s decided, we’re going to disband Givuss and form a new band?” Tora asked, curious. “I really don’t know if we are going to disband now or sometime in the future”
“So you are ok with us leaving the band, aren’t you?” Tora asked me again, I just nodded my head in approval; if it means making us better musicians, I wouldn’t mind.
“Then who’ll be the members for the new band, if that ever happens” he asked, as we exited the room. I really can’t think of anyone who could be members to our future band, if it’s official we’re quitting Givuss.
“It could be Saga, who knows…” he said, grinning and looking at me with a mischievous look in his eyes. “Since he’s available, but his band history is very unreliable...” Tora continued as we stepped out of the building.
“Yeah, I know what you mean, but we won’t lose anything by just asking” I suggested.
“Oh, by the way, I forgot to ask, what did you do after I left you at the ramen stand the other day?” he asked with a grin wider than usual.
“What do you mean, I only had ramen and then left” I said. He didn’t have to know about my encounter with Saga.
“Oh really? Because I saw a certain bassist you starred at earlier enter the ramen stand”
I froze, my face suddenly feeling hot , remembering the time I spent with a bassist. I could hear Tora laughing as he continued walking “Well Shou, see you soon, and I hope you’ll tell me what you both did” he said, waving his hand.
I kept staring at his retreating figure, still with a blush on my face. I can’t deny that I had a good time with Saga, but that was all. It wasn’t like I felt something for him; and if that was the case, why did I keep blushing every time that Tora mentioned Saga. I didn’t even know Saga that well to develop feelings for him.
Nodding my head in disapproval, I had already admitted my preference for both sex, but that doesn’t prove that I would feel something for Saga right now, or would I? I sighed hardly once more, heading out.
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I walked into my favorite cake shop in the city without paying attention to my surrounding. I kept walking until suddenly I bumped into someone, making me lose my balance and fall on the ground. I was about to say something to the mysterious person until I heard someone talking to me “Gomen nasai Shou, are you alright?” I recognized that voice, it was Saga’s. Raising my head, I looked at the person at whom I bumped into, and there he was, with a worried look on his face and a bag from the cake shop in his right hand while the other was waving in my face.
“Hai, thanks” I answered, grasping his hand for support. “I’m really sorry about that Shou, it wasn’t my intention to make you fall”
“Don’t worry, I wasn’t paying attention.” it wasn’t his fault at all, it just that I was so focused on about the conversation I had with Tora that my mind was somewhere else.
“Ne Shou, would you like something? My treat” Saga said with a smile “Ah?” I looked at him confused and felt a little blush invading my face again. God, why did I keep blushing every time he smiles? I should find a way to stop this “As a retribution for making you fall”
“Ah, but it wasn’t your fault, and you must be in a hurry, aren’t you?” I said looking at the bag from the cake shop. Saga fixed met my gaze and his smile became bigger, making me blush harder. Stop blushing already!
“Hehe, don’t worry, I’m not in a hurry and I think she would have to wait till I arrive home” Saga said with a smile, grabbing my hand. “Come on” he said, walking ahead. I just nodded my head in approval; If my face was a little red earlier, now it was bright red. I am seriously starting to hate all this blushing issue, and the fact that he was grabbing my hand didn’t made things easier, neither the fact that his hand was kind of soft for someone who plays the bass.
“Sorry, but I’m a bit curious. Who is she, the person that you’re going to give that” I heard a little chuckle from Saga before he answered me “It’s for my younger sister, she asked me to buy it for her”.
We sat a little table near the entrance of the shop. Saga let go of my hand and took a seat, I followed suit and sat in front of him “So what would you like to eat?” he asked me as a waitress approached us.
“Uhmm, I would like a Tiramisu cake and Soymilk, please” the waitress nodded in approval as she wrote down my order “and I would like a Strawberry cheesecake” the waitress nodded and went to the front to prepare our orders.
“Soymilk? Do you like Soymilk?” Saga asked me with a puzzled look on his face. I blinked at his question. It wasn’t that weird to see someone who drinks soymilk.
“Yeah, why?” I asked him as I saw the waitress coming with our orders and placing them in front. “Just curios” he replied with a smile “Can I have a sip?” he asked me again; I was about to spill the soymilk through my nose when he said that, and I felt that aggravating blush spreading through my face again.
“Yeah, s-sure why not” I said to him, a little nervous. He just smiled and took my glass of soymilk and started drinking; God damn it, I couldn’t take off my gaze from him and my blush was becoming stronger again.
Saga then placed the glass in front of me “Are you alright Shou, your face is kind of red”
Crap. Nothing is in my mind at this moment except this problem. I would have to solve the blushing problem when I get home. I fix my gaze on the cake and started eating it; a few seconds later I heard Saga’s low laughter, then fading away and concentrated on eating our desserts.
“Oi Saga, I heard some the rumors” I said to him, raising my head and paused eating. “What rumors?” he asked, still focus on his dessert “Rumors concerning you quitting your band?” I saw how Saga stopped eating and lifted his face.
“So you already found out” he said playing with his spoon “Hai, I just wanted to know why you left them”
Saga stopped playing with his spoon and fixed his gaze on me “Ever the curious one today, aren’t we?” Saga said with a smirk, I blinked at his statement and I could hear a laughter coming from his side, at this action I just pouted and his laughter became louder. After a moment it ceased.
“Well, I felt like my career as musician in a group with them are just empty dreams” he said bluntly “Oh, I see” it was the only thing that I could muster, then maybe I could ask him about what Tora had said to me.
“Ne Saga, I would like to know if you would like to form a band with Tora and me” I asked him without looking at his face.
“Are you guys going to disband?” Saga said surprised “Ehh not yet, we still don’t know if we are going to quit”
“Oh I see” he said starting to eat his cake again.
“So what do you think?” I asked him a little nervous
“I would like to be in a band with you guys, but I can’t confirm yet. I’d have to think about it” Saga said eating the last piece of his cake.
“So is that maybe a yes?” I asked him a little excited; Saga nodded his head in approval.
“But it is still not official” he said giving me a little piece of paper “It is my cell phone number, call me in a few days and I would give you an official answer” Saga said giving the check to the waitress who was already picking up our dishes.
“Well, see you soon Shou” Saga said taking his bag of the cake shop.
“See you soon” I answered him, he just smiled at me one more time before heading for the exit door, a little blush appeared again on my face as he left. How would it feel to work with him in the same band, I was conscious about his band record, but I wouldn’t lose anything by trying.