Well Vanessa, Thank You for your kind words. I agree that we don't know eachother very well. I would like to change that. There are too many things that I am composed of to explain to you. If you have read all my entries on this name, you should check out www.livejournal.com/users/splinteredmind4 to read more about why I am so depressed. It's not a fun experience. It's almost as if The outside of me is directly conradicting what I am feeling on the inside. It's too much to handle, and I hate it. Not for the feeling, but for the reason that nowadays, it's the "in" thing to feel depressed and hate so many things about yourself. I hate thinking about how many people are thinking "Fucking get over it, you sobbing bitch" but this is honestly, %100 how I feel.
I got way off the track. Thank you for the comment.
Re: Thank YouanglickittenMarch 24 2005, 22:40:44 UTC
frank i am so sorry you have all this pain and depression i want to take it all away for you and this girl ... she doesnt know what she is missing any girl would be the luckiest person in the world to have you she will come to her senses eventually if she doesnt then she is just fucking dumb! i read your other lj it made me sad to the point of tears ... hun i am so sorry ppl are such assholes and dont get feelings... and i also see that ppl think depression is the in thing and when you really have depression like clinical depression ( like me) then you see its not and you realize how stupid ppl are . it makes me so mad to see some of these ppl. i had to go to therapy and i was perscribed antidepressants and shit and my mom said it was just a joke and i wanted attention... some ppl dont get it when your depressed it sucks its not cool or the "in" thing its horrible. you are a great person i dont want you to be depressed i want you to be happy! but that will take time frank you will be happy one day trust me things WILL get better i
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The advice I can impart to you is that (please forgive me for being harsh) but you are not supposed to know what love is at the age you are. You may be discovering love, but you do't have a full grasp on it. I Dont even have a full grasp on it. My philosophy, which has been tweaked and scrubbed thoroughly, is that your life is like a balance beam. One side is sadness, while the other side is happiness. Whenever something happens that makes you sad, it adds weight to the sadness side. Whenever something happens to make you happy, It adds to the happiness side. The beam must be balanced out periodically, so for as much sadness you have, invariably, you are required to have the same amount of happiness. I know this is cynical to the point of tears, but it's a testament to be thankful for all the pain in your life, as well as all the happiness.
Re: A Problem...anglickittenMarch 25 2005, 16:32:16 UTC
yeah we were at the store and courey told him " tel her now or i will" and i asked what was wrong he didnt wanna tell me so i took out my fone and said tell me and he said not like this and i said is it bad? he said he did something very stupid. and i said did you cheat on me? and as we pulled into my friends driveway and im getting out he says im so sorry and i throw my bag out of the car hug tom n cour turn to him on the verge of tears and try to give him a hug and he holds onto me and gives me a big hug i get out and slam the door and as they pull away i drop my stuff on the porch and break down. i tell chauncey and her bf brings us to coureys so i can talk to joe but he was half asleep and i dont know what to do i mean i "love" him and i dont want to lose him but i dont know what he wants and i asked him and then he asked me .... i was so upset all i wanted to do was hit him really hard i mean he makes these promises and tells me he is completely in love with me and wants to be with me forever and i feel the same and this happens
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Joe is leaving for the army soon. Plus, even if Georgia didn't say anything to Kristin, Joe still, obviously knew that you two were still together, did he not? Case and point. And dont apologize for talking to me about your problems. It's what I'm good at. I didn't say that what you guys have or had wasnt "real" or "true" love, I'm just saying that there are too many complexities for a young mind to understand. It's more than just being happy when you're with him, and you need to have someone tell you you're beautiful? Don't know KNOW that you are? You need to be connected on much deeper of a deeper level than just "being happy" with someone. It's hard to explain and even harder to find. talk to me on AIM- LostSanity4350
Re: A Problem...anglickittenMarch 26 2005, 20:57:37 UTC
thanks frank it means alot to me that you talk to me about this i realize it is joes fault too and i know i should be mad at him but i cant im hurt yes and mad he did it but i honestly would do anything for him and forgive him everything ... i just want to be with him. im not just happy with him im complete im content im just ... i feel like everything is perfect ive never had someone treat me the way he treats me... thanks frank ill call you tonight love you f! *vanessa
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The advice I can impart to you is that (please forgive me for being harsh) but you are not supposed to know what love is at the age you are. You may be discovering love, but you do't have a full grasp on it. I Dont even have a full grasp on it. My philosophy, which has been tweaked and scrubbed thoroughly, is that your life is like a balance beam. One side is sadness, while the other side is happiness. Whenever something happens that makes you sad, it adds weight to the sadness side. Whenever something happens to make you happy, It adds to the happiness side. The beam must be balanced out periodically, so for as much sadness you have, invariably, you are required to have the same amount of happiness. I know this is cynical to the point of tears, but it's a testament to be thankful for all the pain in your life, as well as all the happiness.
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or call my cell -862-221-0516
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