im soooo excited. im finally gonna get kaylis tattoo on thursday. i was supposed to get it yesterday but the guy ran out of time, plus he wasnt finished designing it for me. he said the tat is going to take like 2 hours. its going to be a tribal looking butterfly and in the body of the butterfly its going to say kayli's name. i cant wait. im going ( Read more... )

i SOO want to read everyones posts tonight.. and believe me.. ive tried. but my eyes are going crossed and its just NOT working out. i PROMISE ill read tomorrow and comment.

love to all!

( recent pics of kayli )

i really miss jesse. i miss what we had. i miss looking at him and seeing nothing but perfection.

i miss being happy.

so jesse calls my work tonight and says "you need to get out of work now and come here, cause my unit just got activated and we leave tomorrow at 7am to go over seas" i fuckin flipped my shit. couldnt believe it. kept questioning it and burst into tears. i know we're not together and going through a rough time, but ive always been an empathetic ( Read more... )

some people just dont get it ( Read more... )

you have no idea what has gone on between us, no idea what has been said, no idea what is keeping us apart. youve heard a one sided story, maybe two, but the second never came from me. ive always respected your opinion, but.. whatever. theres not much more i can say.

i hurt.

all i see is red. im sorry but thats how i feel right now. i know ive lost him. i waited too long. im sorry baby.. i do love you, but after hearing all the things you had to say to me that seemed so sincere and pure and then finding out that youve just been hiding away with that herion addict really hurts and makes me want to shed blood

it REALLY sucks that i have absolutely no way of getting a hold of my daughters father. i never know where he is. what if something happens to her? is this responsible ( Read more... )

so i work with this girl named ginger. shes from moldova (next to bulgaria) and i love her to peices. shes the only foreigner i will miss this year. ever since the day we met we just clicked. its really neat. but anyways, last night we were just sitting at work waiting for the time to pass and out of no where she looks at me and says "mikki.. youre ( Read more... )