i have no idea what i'm doing.  it sucks that the only guidance possible to recieve is from other humans.  cause really...what do they know?

still though.

what do people do to pass the time before they die?

so what?  so what if the world is sure to end and you'll be stuck here until then?  like church mass suicide we could take on the end on our will.  division in chaos will keep it going longer.  let's promise to kill ourselves by killing each other ( Read more... )

hurt and lonliness and pain and anguish, they turn to art if fermented long enough.

but maybe being satisfied is just an excuse not to try harder.

can we, for once, feel like its worth something more than it is without it being a burden ( Read more... )

try if you like, but the world is perpetually identical throughout life ( Read more... )

i'm not saying i'm great...but i've never been this good at anything as i have gotten at guitar.

i feel like if i stop playing for even a day than i'll forget everything i knew, and wake up to realize that i suck at everything again.

got the drug talk today.  and look at that, it only came like 6 years late.  why do i feel like i'm going through all the important times in high school in the past like 6 months?

at anyrate, i was minutes away from asking dad to smoke a bowl with me.  and then he hit a bird with his car.

the dream that followed my falling asleep at the wheel 4-6 times on my way home from college park work and then again curbside at my house for an astounding 30 minutes was more real than the 5 minutes of deja vu gone wrong i experienced while at work.  in it, one of my bosses let me know that she will miss when i go to hell for not believing in ( Read more... )

i want to go to medieval times for my 21st birthday.

takers?

thefacebook makes me depressed.  i have been out just about every night for the past week or so which, although takes its toll on gas/money, is making for a good summer.  i work more than i ever have, even if you include school hours as work since i slept through most of them anyways ( Read more... )