A real entry with real problems

[angryreply]

I know I don't use this but I need to talk to somebody or something to keep my sanity. Better something nobody will look at than having to talk to my family or friends about this, whenever I get asked it just makes me feel even worse. So lets give this journaling thing a try

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[happymadison12]

everyday ive wanted to call (and ive even written a few emails that i just couldnt send). im so sorry cj. i really wanted ask if there was anything i could do to help or comfort you in any way. but in all reality - i knew that if it was happening to me, i would just want to be shut off from everything. i just want you to know that i really wasnt blowing you off from your last phone call - and now it sounds like that trip is canceled anyway. i just figured you would want some time to yourself. i hope that youre okay...even though i know your arent. if there is anything i can do - i leave on thursday but if there is anything i can do before i go - or even if you want someone to email you while im away. well that was like five different thoughts in one sentence. but really cj. im sorry we havent talked in a while. i really care about you guys. and i really hope it works out. and i really want you to know that you both have been on my mind.

[heavenscalyx]

Hey, you

[angryreply]

Thanx aunt Judy
Took me about 10 seconds to figure out who you were, I read the name clicked on it and the first entry was about being disappointed In the current RPGs.
I really appreciate you're kind words and its nice to know your around.Things have defiantly gotten better. We are back together quite literally hours after I posted this. My cast came off today and Now I have to wear this boot, but I am still far from fully functioning (gotta learn that whole walking thing again, and on the job front I am still kinda SOL but I'm managing.And on the bright side of things while she was away I did my best to try and stay occupied and I finished my proton pack.I am now the proud owner of my own personal Unlicensed nuclear accelerator.

[heavenscalyx]

Oh, good. I'm glad things are going a bit better. I generally cruise by to read about once a week (when I'm procrastinating at work!), so I showed up late to the party.

Yay on getting the cast off! I'm sure walking will come back to you. It's like falling off a bike. Er, wait.

Jobs come and jobs go, alas. Maybe you'll suddenly land one that will be some awesome stepping-stone in a few years. That's how my jobs have usually gone. It sucks at the time to lose them, but a year or two later, I look back and go, "Well, hey, if it weren't for that incredibly sucky time, I wouldn't be able to do this thing for my new job that makes me all indispensible and stuff."

It'll all work out! (I say optimistically, glad for a distraction while I bang my skull against my current STUPID PROJECT. Ahem.)

And yay proton pack! Planning to get to a con soon?

[angryreply]

I'm sure it will I mean worst case scenario one of the managers who actually likes me told me Id probably get my job back if I wanted it, not so sure If i really do might go looking for something else. Unfortunately all the cons around here kind fell through and there were some pipe dreams of going down to GA for Dragon Con one of the biggest cons of the year, but especially with the boot thats not gonna happen. I'm just happy that Ill probably be healed all up for Halloween and all the fun that comes along with having a ridiculous costume.I also just recently made it to a Horror con in Baltimore were I meet Ernie Hudson(The black Ghostbuster), Michael Gross(Burt from the tremors movies), And Malcolm McDowell(Lead character from Clockwork Orange) I was really Happy especially about Ernie.I also might be doing something with my sisters long time boyfriend, he works at Fort Delaware( a historical place)and they do ghost tours there.I may be going so I can Mess with his boss as "real" Ghost hunters are pretty regular to the tour. I guess