okay so this is gonna sound wierd and all but i think that i need to go to see a doctor about this. i can make believe a dream right, well everyone can, but sometimes i can make believe a dream that my mind turns into a memory that actually happened. sounds weird right? well listen to this. i had a dream one night about something that happened ( Read more... )

so tonight the fam and i went to on the border to eat, and tomorrow my little brother heads off to college for the first time. i dont know what he's going to do without my mommy to cook and do his laundry for him. he'll survive.  been putting my resume out where ever is hiring. i got a letter today from bioscrip (the place i interviewd at) saying ( Read more... )

so no call today which means that i didnt get the job :( makes me a little sad but oh well right nothing i can do about it except keep putting out my application. um i hopefully found a date for me to go to christina's wedding. my beca who i havent seen in like two years! damn her for moving away. it should be fun seeing christina and beca both at ( Read more... )

i dyed my hair red to keep going on my whole me and my "can do" attitude. i like it, no one else has really seen me yet so i havent gotten any reaction to it.

im like really nervous about waiting for this job to call me back. i really want it bad, they have great benefits for both me and the kids and the pay is great. it would be enough for me to get an apartment and other things by myself and still be able to afford idk extra things that i normally wouldnt by becuase im used to not having money. but ( Read more... )

yea so im on a new kick with me and my "can do" attistude, of changing myself. i know i can't change everything in my life, but the few things i've started to change have been awesome so far. okay...so i finish school in about three weeks, im so excited about it about it too! im number one in the class and i have a 98%, way to go me and my "can do ( Read more... )

okay for some time now ive had this guy stuck in my head, and i dont know what to do about it. he's been on my subconsious mind for awhile, becuase everytime i try to think of something he pops into my head. when i go to bed at night i dream of him or even worse he is even in my nightmares. why? why is this guy just in my thoughts at all times. ( Read more... )

omg, im sitting at my computer thinking to myself why bother with it, why bother wiht him. you are only going to get hurt. and the person that you want most doesnt even know that you are alive, that you are breathing, that you even exsit. you're looking around for the escapse everytime you're with the guy. just drop it and settle for someone else ( Read more... )