CHRISTMAS TIME....
the HOLIDAY season.... christmas and thanksgiving... and yes halloween. i think it all starts with halloween. even tho this halloween wasn't spectacular... i hung out with michael i think... oh yes. fear factor at his church. that WAS FUN... BUT GROSS. lol. and now... we're singing christmas music in choir (although i will have to admit that i am sadly disappointed with mr. dickerson's choices for ACAP... but i should have learned) and i finally get to sing FRUITCAKE!!! i want everyone to come to our holiday concert. it's gonna rock. (around... the christmas tree... haha). no but really this whole season puts me in so much of a better mood. which is so desperatley needed right now.
i feel like something in my life is missing... i don't know what. and i have to do all this college stuff... everyone around me is, and everyone i'm talking to is making me feel like such a loser! i went to university of portland this weekend... really didn't like it. i can't really say why... i mean, it's a nice campus, and the class i went to was really interesting (great teacher)... but it's just so small. and the people... i'm so tired of being known as little schilling... or little jc. yuck. so i think i might just have to cross that off my list... argh. i wish i knew where i want to go. or what i want to do. but i don't.... time will tell i guess. right? right.
life is pretty good... except this weird void i feel. i mean, i'm fighting with my parents, but nothing huge. it's actually gotten like 100 times better that last week, which is great. and school... well i'm being a huge HUGE slacker so i guess my grades SHOULD reflect that... even tho i wish they would still just be A's. haha. don't we all? lol. and guys... are just confusing. i wish that you could just like someone, and they could like you back, and it could be that easy. but it's not. oh well...
YoungLife tomorrow... i wish i could go to Gig harbor tho... fun. do you ever wish you could just leave? like move away from everything so that maybe whatever was bothering you would just stay back where u used to be? i feel like that now.
FORTY ONE DAYS!!!