Thoughts on Friendship

[animar506]

Friendship is

Comments

[shyallyn]

I wanted to give my friend the one thing they thought they didn't have. Total acceptance. To go back if I could, I think I would have told them the things I did not agree with and probably would have lost that friendship much sooner than I did. When I finally did tell them all the things I had never agreed with them about, unfortunately in anger (to which I regret, but I am only human, too), they thought I had never listened to anything they said. Honestly, I listened all too well. I went about telling them the truth in the wrong way and made them close their eyes and ears to what I was saying. If only I had handled it better... well I am filled with my own set of "if only"s. If only... maybe they would have at least seen what I was trying so hard to say instead of shutting out my words. I can't go back. I can only go forward since I refuse to stagnate anymore. I do not love everything in my life, but I am enjoying where it is going at this moment. Being a newly wed, pregnant and a mother to a beautiful 3 year old is such a wonderful

Thanks for writing.

[animar506]

I appreciate your honest perspective. We all make mistakes, some more regrettable than others. The good part is that you are realizing your mistakes and taking responsibility for your own actions as much as is possible. Maybe someday our friend will be able to appreciate all we each have learned.

We all have the "if only's"! You aren't alone there! If only... I didn't have to choose between two very special people. If only... I would have known then what was going to happen as an effect of the choice I made. (How would I have ever known what the future was going to hold?)

I certainly can relate.

There will always be another chance to try again to be different, to choose different, to answer different. We won't know if that chance may be with the same person or not.

Re: Thanks for writing.

[shyallyn]

YOu know the last thing you asked me in your last email? I am too tired to reply there, so I wanted to say that if you want to discuss in a closed entry what you and I have discussed in emails, is fine with me. Things have been so hectic today, I will try and email you later. :)

Re: Thanks for writing.

[animar506]

Ok, I was going to ask you about that. :) I'll reask that here when I get a few minutes. I have today and tomorrow off work, and was off yesterday. Whoo Hooo! Now to stay off the computer long enought to actually accomplish something. Haha...