In this silent night where snow is falling
Just posting my (art)scribbles. Nothing new since I've posted them before on other SNS.
Seems like this was from last year or the year before. A bit fuzzy with the time since a lot of my electronics broke.
I tried colouring them (with weird results) but they look different...
Oh, I have another image but it's not supported D: below below ~
-both painted long after I had my Fujitsu with a touchpad or mouse
Think I could do better with a tablet? (hit)
Oh well. It's been a long time since I drew anyways. Even now, thinking back of what I do in my free time, a lot of it involves internet wandering. Much. -w-
Maybe I'm overthinking on a lot of levels and essentially, I don't need a lot of that. I guess, once switched on, this is hard to turn off.
In a lot of ways, I'm still the rough diamond girl that one friend told me a long time ago. It's kinda of a pain to know that you're learning through unconventional ways (I had music classes- 1, singing in class but that didn't spark that flame; 2, art classes were the same like 1)
and seriously, it doesn't really help that I excel in what I LIKE to do. So anything I don't like, I'll have a problem in grasping them.
Somehow, figuring out that I didn't really learn much in my interns (unlike my comrades, their mentors/supervisors were like top or yuushu(優秀) people compared to mine, which is a lowly in my opinion and organisational chart.. I felt kind of sink(ed), if that has a meaning.
But even so, it made me go interview people, approach people and stuff which pretty much covered what I want to do (but no analysing on the desk 99% of the time, thanks), I guess I didn't decide on what exactly I wanted from my interns? I won't further second-guess my past decisions but about driving, I was really hurt that it's a really stupid process (even a friend of mine was owo at it) and long, not to mention monopolised till for me, I don't see much good from learning how to drive. Of course, this is part of my defense argument that
1. Where would I go? It's not like I'll save anymore money if I do go around places.
2. I would increase pollution (I know it's a very lame excuse) and carbon footprint.
3. If I do drive to college, reason #2 and #1 would happen, and what about parking fees? Fuel?
And being hurt about wasting time when I don't want to be there, to wait for people taking their sweet damn time to get it going. When I take it seriously, I felt like a fool. But when it's the other way around, I'll be light-hearted about it.
I know I'm being worse than I was (more childish that I'll ever be, as I grow older) but I've given up too many things. And right now, I don't give a damn about what other people want. I'll try my best with my self-control not to mow down things like a blind angry bull who sees red everywhere (I can at least, promise that) but I just want to feel free.
are kore mo dame datte. fuzakenai de kure
A freaking romantic I am, this song is just, one of the many things I would like to have.
Just keep being curious self. That's all you can do right now.
Title was from Fujita Maiko's Kono Shiroi Yuki to.
Seems like this was from last year or the year before. A bit fuzzy with the time since a lot of my electronics broke.
I tried colouring them (with weird results) but they look different...
Oh, I have another image but it's not supported D: below below ~
-both painted long after I had my Fujitsu with a touchpad or mouse
Think I could do better with a tablet? (hit)
Oh well. It's been a long time since I drew anyways. Even now, thinking back of what I do in my free time, a lot of it involves internet wandering. Much. -w-
Maybe I'm overthinking on a lot of levels and essentially, I don't need a lot of that. I guess, once switched on, this is hard to turn off.
In a lot of ways, I'm still the rough diamond girl that one friend told me a long time ago. It's kinda of a pain to know that you're learning through unconventional ways (I had music classes- 1, singing in class but that didn't spark that flame; 2, art classes were the same like 1)
and seriously, it doesn't really help that I excel in what I LIKE to do. So anything I don't like, I'll have a problem in grasping them.
Somehow, figuring out that I didn't really learn much in my interns (unlike my comrades, their mentors/supervisors were like top or yuushu(優秀) people compared to mine, which is a lowly in my opinion and organisational chart.. I felt kind of sink(ed), if that has a meaning.
But even so, it made me go interview people, approach people and stuff which pretty much covered what I want to do (but no analysing on the desk 99% of the time, thanks), I guess I didn't decide on what exactly I wanted from my interns? I won't further second-guess my past decisions but about driving, I was really hurt that it's a really stupid process (even a friend of mine was owo at it) and long, not to mention monopolised till for me, I don't see much good from learning how to drive. Of course, this is part of my defense argument that
1. Where would I go? It's not like I'll save anymore money if I do go around places.
2. I would increase pollution (I know it's a very lame excuse) and carbon footprint.
3. If I do drive to college, reason #2 and #1 would happen, and what about parking fees? Fuel?
And being hurt about wasting time when I don't want to be there, to wait for people taking their sweet damn time to get it going. When I take it seriously, I felt like a fool. But when it's the other way around, I'll be light-hearted about it.
I know I'm being worse than I was (more childish that I'll ever be, as I grow older) but I've given up too many things. And right now, I don't give a damn about what other people want. I'll try my best with my self-control not to mow down things like a blind angry bull who sees red everywhere (I can at least, promise that) but I just want to feel free.
are kore mo dame datte. fuzakenai de kure
A freaking romantic I am, this song is just, one of the many things I would like to have.
Just keep being curious self. That's all you can do right now.
Title was from Fujita Maiko's Kono Shiroi Yuki to.