I'm sad. Ahn, then you definitely won't read, will you?

[animedutchess]

I can't even make the figure representing me a hero when I'm the one writing it. I have to sit there and tourture myself by having what happened reflected by the other side, and then fictionalized. And in the end, no one shows a glimmer of humanity. My character doesn't even speak, and the one who actually might want to reach out does nothing. W-Why do I do this to myself...build up my hopes and then never resolve them...I know I can go back and write more, and I probably should, but I know it's just going to end as hopeless as it does where it is now.

I feel like someone's locked my throat, and whenever I try to bring up something that makes me feel like crap to someone who's going through a similar situation or is around people that're part of the problem, I can't.