Well. it is official. she must really hate me. she just blocked me from her lj, she will not respond to my ims, she must think i am lower than shit. I just dont know what to do. I really liked her. and i thought that she liked me back. what could i have done to her? for thoes of you who do not know, i am about to tell the entire sad story. I will ( Read more... )

What does a life amount to? We all walk though it and live our lives. We sleep, we eat, we love, we die. All of it follows the same route. What does a life of good or bad amount to? If we all die, what is the point of being good, of being pious? There will always be toes people who wish to hurt others, who like to see the suffering of others. Are ( Read more... )

One day, when I was a freshman in high school ( Read more... )

How hard it it to hold onto a little bit of sanity? Mine just seems to be slowly slipping away. It is not raging away, or cmming off in a few big chunks, but as a slow flow. A constant pace. Never stopping. The more I try and hold it it, the more it goes. Must i gegain my sanity by letting go of it all? Is it my restrain that is making me crazy?

What makes a bad person? If a good person does a bad thing, does that make them a bad person? Can my entire life be changed because i did something slightly wrong ( Read more... )

damn it. i miss her so much, but i cant brin myself to tell her. she stays always right outside my grasp. I keep reaching for her, thrying to get closer, but the more i move towards her, the farhter she walks away. All i wish to do is hold her in my arms and tell her I love her, but i cant. She cant ever be with me. I should not even be thinking ( Read more... )

DAMN IT!!!! I DID IT AGAIN!!!!! I just wish that someone could pull me up from this depression that i am in. none of my "friends" even notice that i am sad. I have been so sad at times, and no one would ever even ask me if i am ok. i know of only one person thet would go hi to me in IM if i did not say something first. Am i that over powering of a ( Read more... )

Gaah, i have been haveing a bad time with life lately. I have just felt so alone lately. Like i am just walking through the actions of life. like, i am not really here. my life seems to be going in a spiral... not really going either up or down... but confizing none the same. i geel like such an ass right now. I chased her away again for the 3rd ( Read more... )

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