Woah this week...
I've been out of my mind stressed this week.
I find this odd because last week I had some of the best days I've had in a LONG time. And I knew...I knew something would change.
This week has been full of a heavy heart, high blood pressure, a loaded/self-loathing brain, anxiety at work, too much for one person to do at work syndrome, HEAT, multiple daydreams of negative memories, switching from grave sleep schedule to day and then back again in the space of five days, incompatible technology, and overdraft fees.
I won't go into each one...but goodness I feel that my plate is FULL!
I have Thursday off and I am well on my way towards my new grave schedule. Yay for borrowed laptops, (you know who you are - I am SO grateful. I may even offer to pay you for this favor.)
I got off work today and spent an hour +/- using free wifi and having delicious food. Then I headed to the river to swim with Thom-Lynx and quite a few people I didn't know. I got to jump off of a dock! Multiple times!
Then off to a warm pub where everyone ordered tater tots instead of french fries as their side.
It was an excellent detox of this past work week.
Things still aren't perfect, but hopefully I will get past the creeping desire bursting into tears out of frustration. Wow, that sounds dramatic. Maybe it's not that bad, guys. Cause it only happened like...once or twice today. And while the residing feeling of "i could cry right now" has been popping into my body awareness conscious, it hasn't been the"I am crying right now again!?" feeling or realization.
I'm on my way to better. Not that life is about better, but I have been pretty low...so up from here is just general suckiness vs grasping for any postivity.
I think the staying up late is getting to me...I don't know that any of that made any sense.
Yay for Sanctuary Comic-Con Panel being up! Woooot!
Oh, and yay Eureka! Goooooood season so far.
Okay, done for now. Back to reading fic. Teehee!
I find this odd because last week I had some of the best days I've had in a LONG time. And I knew...I knew something would change.
This week has been full of a heavy heart, high blood pressure, a loaded/self-loathing brain, anxiety at work, too much for one person to do at work syndrome, HEAT, multiple daydreams of negative memories, switching from grave sleep schedule to day and then back again in the space of five days, incompatible technology, and overdraft fees.
I won't go into each one...but goodness I feel that my plate is FULL!
I have Thursday off and I am well on my way towards my new grave schedule. Yay for borrowed laptops, (you know who you are - I am SO grateful. I may even offer to pay you for this favor.)
I got off work today and spent an hour +/- using free wifi and having delicious food. Then I headed to the river to swim with Thom-Lynx and quite a few people I didn't know. I got to jump off of a dock! Multiple times!
Then off to a warm pub where everyone ordered tater tots instead of french fries as their side.
It was an excellent detox of this past work week.
Things still aren't perfect, but hopefully I will get past the creeping desire bursting into tears out of frustration. Wow, that sounds dramatic. Maybe it's not that bad, guys. Cause it only happened like...once or twice today. And while the residing feeling of "i could cry right now" has been popping into my body awareness conscious, it hasn't been the"I am crying right now again!?" feeling or realization.
I'm on my way to better. Not that life is about better, but I have been pretty low...so up from here is just general suckiness vs grasping for any postivity.
I think the staying up late is getting to me...I don't know that any of that made any sense.
Yay for Sanctuary Comic-Con Panel being up! Woooot!
Oh, and yay Eureka! Goooooood season so far.
Okay, done for now. Back to reading fic. Teehee!