when tony was in phoenix, i missed him far too much that it made me happy. weird, bc missing people usually make me feel nostalgic/sad. but the only reason that missing him made me so happy was because i knew the instant id see him, id be too overwhelmed w/ excitement/happiness to see him again. made me realize that patience is all worth while ( Read more... )

you know what. i am sitting in the comp lab at school trying to get some work done but i don't feel all that motivated at the moment due to the uncomfortableness of my jeans. i am realizing right now that i am gaining some serious weight due to tony's cooking every night. i must stop this at once b4 my H&M pants that i just got this summer are ( Read more... )

it occurred to me last night that assholes have some nerve, either that or just stupidity or both.

and its the few pple like martin who can look at the situation and make postiveness out of it.

LA has its ups and downs. and last night was a perfect example. allow me to explain. first, me eman, matt, and meg went to clock work orange. but b4 entering, we downed a bottle of rum so that we don't have to pay for overly expensive 12$ vodka tonics in there. but, some power trip security guards suspected that meg was drunk even though she ( Read more... )

i can't help but notice the skepticism that consumes me right now. in the 2 days we've known and met e/o ( Read more... )

(x) smoked a cigarette ( Read more... )

it is 6 am in ny right now and i can't get myself to go back to sleep. i was craving my pecan bar in the fridge and i was just hopin that i would be able to fall right back to sleep after i ate it, but now im regretting it bc i think thats what's keepin me up right now. although, my fascination for the sweets/nuts was what was keeping me up to ( Read more... )

im going to cry... again. i had a semi anxiety attack today when i arrived to work and realized my new hair cut looked utterly disgusting. i feel/look like a lil boy gone mentally confused about ones sexuality. everyone was giving me extreme comments from "what the fuck happened to your hair?" to "who did your hair" to "i like youre hair. its ( Read more... )

haha, i loooooove getting fucked up 3 days in a row w/ sleeplessness by my side, then having to show up to work 3/4 drunk at 6 am and then having deliriousness suddenly strike me at any given moment during my shift. i honestly could not ctrl my laughter when i was leading a customer to a fitting room. i just looked into her eyes as i said hello ( Read more... )

i feel as tho i am too anxious to see my crush in 3 weeks. that saddens me somewhat but also just gets me all worked up for the day i do get to see him ( Read more... )