dude, yeah. my life is all changling so i've got a new journal.

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Stolen from glew

Post anything that you want, and post it anonymously. A story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love... anything. Make sure to post anonymously and honestly. Post as many times as you'd like. Then, put this in your LJ to see what others have to say... or don't, whatever, loser.

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**an acquaintence of mine, travis, died on friday. it's just really made me.... rethink some of my actions. he had been taking oxycontin because he had a broken leg, and he started drinking that night and was found dead in the morning. the fucking counselors at my school are trying to make it seem like he was a drug addict, slandering him to ( Read more... )

things are odd. i miss beverly hills. i miss the people, the smell, the shopping. i miss lila and lillian alot. they don't even attempt communtication anymore. i feel like crying everytime i think about them. i feel hated. i feel lonely.

everyone thinks that i'm a bitch again, they're telling me not to be like that. fuck you kids. i don't fucking ( Read more... )

i went to ashley's this afternoon, hanging out with ashro and karrie. when karrie left, we got bored and i devised a horrid concoction. 1 1/2 liters grape soda, 1/2 liter vodka. whoa. i got really drunk, i drank most of this stuff. i ended up calling jensen on multiple occasions.... confessing my love.
wow.
i hate myself.
-jade.

i called ash, she didn't pick up. i'm worried. i'll call her again soon.

jensen threatened to keep my cuff! i think i might cry. i love that thing. i don't know where i stand with him anymore. billy was telling me that he really likes me, i... don't want to like him.........

ehh u suck

do u rule or do u suck?
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so, i went down to the mission at 4:30, when billy and jensen came, they didn't see me at the bench. i wasn't at our usual meeting place (the fountain bear), so i sorta stalked them until the turned around to sit and saw me. good stuff. we went to the 7-11 for the slurpees and headed over to the parking structure, it was too light too sleep so i ( Read more... )

talked to jensen for about 2 hours last night. thinking about going to the mission today or tomorrow. MY MOM IS LEAVING TOWN SUNDAY!!

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so far. today is bad. i hate my mother. i hate my life.
school was horrid, the only thing keeping me up was the thought of hanging out with some of my favorite people later.

and i can't go.

i hate my mother, i hate my life. everytime i find one good thing, she fucking tears it apart.

i miss jensen.