I'm still shocked. It's as if a part of me is completely gone now. I know she'll always be with me, in my heart and mind, but it doesn't change the feeling. I won't ever again see that smile, or hear that snort when she laughs. I feel like a rotten friend right now. I never went down to hang out like we planned, never made it to any of the parties ( Read more... )

As I sit here typing this, I know you may never see it, but I feel you know in your heart that I'm thinking it. I love you so much. I will miss you more than you will ever know. I keep thinking back to the years we've had together, and it makes me so sad to know that those memories are all I have left. I remember when we met in high school, and ( Read more... )

My rat died this morning. She was close to 3 years old. I miss her already. Who's gonna eat my muffin with me? Or the sea salt and vinegar chips my boyfriend loves so much? It just won't be the same without my little guard mousey. :-(

I have 2 interviews tomorrow, hope I get something here soon. I need a distraction. I'm going insane. My way of coping is to forget. It isn't right. I hate this. I am starting to hate myself.

I'm so depressed and I cannot seem to pull myself out of it. I question everything and everyone, expecting to be hurt or betrayed. It is tearing me apart. I don't know what to do.

Well, since the last time I wrote, I have lost some family. My sister decided that once again, her drug addict boyfriend is more important than her family. I had to report him for child abuse, after his temper got my niece a fork in the head. Someone ratted out that it was me who reported them, and now I'll never see my nieces again. Said boyfriend ( Read more... )

It's been awhile since I wrote anything about what has been happening in my life. Sorry about that. I've been reading other people's entries, but leaving none of my own. So, now I will. In the past month, I've been unemployed, depressed, and considering suicide. I am getting help, and am on medication, so not to worry. I don't know why I feel the ( Read more... )

I had to give up one of my kitties today...phone rang at 10:30 this morning from a neighbor. Socrates had beaten up her cat, and cost her 600.00 in vet bills...he had to go...tried to find him a home on craigslist to avoid the inevitable...no success...drove up to vancouver...portland humane society wouldn't take him for a couple days...no room.... ( Read more... )

Yikes, it's been forever since I actually wrote an entry in this thing. Usually I just read my friend's entries and comment when needed. *Sigh* So, yea, I work at Encompass in Beaverton now, have been for almost 2 months now, and I also moved to Hillsboro. In doing this move I ended up tearing my rotator cuff and straining my right tricep, which ( Read more... )