Odds and ends..
Meh, seems as if my insomnia has returned, after an almost 2-year absence.
I think its because I've been depressed latley. Just been thinking about a lot of things that I have been keeping to myself. Some general...down feelings. Nothing big, nothing to do with my relationship with Ryan- but more to do with myself.
So we're poor as fuck here at the house. Ryan and I have been uber-budgeting our grocery lists, and we've been doing a decent job. We can't really buy for the house, its been pretty much food for us, because we can't afford to feed other people. Hell, the milk we buy has to be restricted to cooking use, more or less. Money is real tight here right now. With any luck, Ryan will get the money back that was borrowed from him so he doesn't have to worry bout rent, and I can either borrow the little bit I'm missing or sell my old text books for it. Actually, working 1 week *should* get me the rest I'm missing.
Gonna goto the Mt. Vernon this week. Not tomorrow, I'm gonna probably stick at home tomorrow (er...today), and get some cleaning done. The dishes don't get done. And because of the lack of lighting in our room, its a mess. I'll see what I can do with the light restriction.
In other poor news...I've lost a lot of weight. I scaled in at 119.8 at the beginning of the day (that was without the pants and junk and before I had eaten), and even after dinner and cake (which I made for Ryan's birthday!), and pants, I still weighed in at 130. So I guess its safe to say I've definitley lost weight while being poor. Though it doesn't LOOK like I've lost it, heh.
I have a few more days to try to come up with money for Bunker Hill. I'm gonna fight with Financial Aid, and hopefully they can help me come up with all I need. But I'm not counting on it. It's the only way I'm able to goto school this semester, if I convince them to give me all the money I need. Sigh. It just makes me feel so stupid, when I'm not in school. When I can't get into school. I know its not my intelligence...but it just makes me feel dumb.
I had a good weekend though, despite all the little things that are bothering me. We had a nice birthday party for Ryan, we hung out at the house and all our Somerville friends were there. We played games, watched movies, chattered and had a lot of fun. Jess made a WONDERFUL dinner, her best friend made yummy cookies, and I made a delicious cake. :3
We also stopped for a bit in order to honour Brandan- we couldn't do much, we didn't have a LAN this year for Ryan/Andrew so we couldn't set his usual spot...nor could we get up to NH to go visit Brandan's site (which I think we'll do *next* weekend, we're going to celebrate Ryan's grandfather's 80th birthday so we'll prolly be able to convince Colby to bring us over to the site-- don't expect Ryan and I to be around to hang out next weekend though guys, just a heads up). But we did tell the house about Brandan, and the fact that he's still very special and that we miss him a lot. We threw a few stories and things back and forth- so I mean, we did what we could considering our situation. Miss you, Brandan. <3
WoW and I have been having issues with each other latley. I'm at a stuck spot- everything is either too high or too low for me right now. I flew through the Ferelas quests I had to do, though I could just grind on Ogres there and get decent exp considering. I think one of my guildies, Ast, is gonna get me through some Hinterlands quests though. And we're due for a guild run of ZF (once Ryan can play again), and Hyte wants to take me to RFD to get me some nice robes. Hopefully I can get through the tough levels and back on track. I'm anxious to get out of the 40-49 pvp bracket so I can start AV and get my rank up a whole bunch. That, and I'm soooo close to being able to see any level alliance as they approach me :-P
Hmm, lets see what else...though I've rambled on so much that I doubt this will get read at this point, heheh...
Things with the boy are going well, we're trying real hard to get through a lot of things right now, just with the being poor thing and whatnot. We've had to work together on a lot of different things that neither of us really have had to deal with before- I mean, we've always lived under my parents or his, so the whole being on our own thing still has a long way to go before its mastered- but once we're through the rough money situations, I think things will be a lot easier.
I think its time for me to quit typing, I've done a bunch of it- and it was theraputic. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get my book in the mail so I can do some reading-that should relax me a bit too.
Till next time.