suckyness
Today was sortof a bad day. I didn't fall asleep till 9:30 this morning because I have gotten my sleep schedule all jacked up since Ive been done with finals also I was hanging with my niece who is currently still in the I need to stay up all night and sleep all day part of infancy. I had fallen asleep at my sisters after both my sisters and my neice left for the little ones doctors appointment. I slept until 1 in the after noon but that is still only like 3 1/2 hours of sleep. Not very much. I was crabby and sarahs house was grand central station when it came to phone calls and since no one else was there to answer I had to either listen to them ring or answer them. I sometimes really hate phones. Well then later on my friend called at asked if I was wanting to go with her to pick her nephew up cause it is about a 45 min drive out there. I told her no and then she told me about the phone that she is getting. We were discussing pricing for plans and stuff. I work for a cell phone company that I am actually sorta proud of. I have through the years worked for 4 different wireless phone companies and I think this one is the best. So everytime she mentioned a plan I would state one that we have that is better or comparable. Instead of just going oh ok she would try to tell me why they were not good and I was wrong. At least is how I felt. After a few minutes of that I couldn't take it anymore, did I mention I was tired and crabby, and I snapped at her saying silly stuff that I think our plans are the best and I will continue thinking they are the best and she cannot state anything different. She got mad (understandable) and said sorry for making you mad and hung up. I felt bad about snapping but at the same time I didn't like being told I was wrong. I have an issue with believing my self to be smart (I know my grades state otherwise) but compared to others that are in my group of friends I feel my intellect is not so great. I feel all of them are smarter then me and that generally doesn't feel good. I will normally fight that by stating I know somethings they don't or I have my special talants they don't but this time of the year sucks for me emotionally anyways (I haven't figures out why this time of year brings me down so much). SO it really made me feel bad when it was interpretted by myself she was telling me I was wrong in stuff I am confindent about and really know my stuff. So I tried to send a text message saying sorry but later I think the text message also sounded mean. I then desided it just really isn't going to work today and I should stop trying.