As of right now, I really don't fucking like my mom or my stepdad. They don't fucking get that I don't like going to church at all and I'm completely miserable there. And I was telling my mom that and I said " I'm not happy when I go there " and my  stepdad goes " DO WE CARE " so I got pissed and said " YOU SHOULD CARE IF I'M HAPPY OR NOT " and my ( Read more... )

WELL, this week has been eventful. I've been having so much anxiety, and I met with my guidance counsler, then periods later I had to go to the school psycologist, and I'm gonna be put into a "group" thing. Andddddddd I went to the doctor's and I have to get blood work done and stuff. I talked to my Aunt Jacqui and she helped me alot because she ( Read more... )

Hello.

Patrick got a girlfriend. I don't know how to feel. I just feel numb. I can't stop crying, and I threw up for around a half hour before.

Good-bye.

EDIT: for some reason, I woke up today, and I don't care anymore, I'm really glad that he's happy that's all I ever wanted for him.

today was my birthday, it was pretty amazing, i love all my friends.

but anyways.

I DON'T KNOW WHY I FUCKING TRY OR WHY I FUCKING CARE FOR THAT MATTER.
seriously, i don't know what the fuck is going on or why but i don't fucking need it. i just wish i didn't give a shit.

my birthday is on thursday, & i'm really excited. i want to go to the movies tomorrow but i have no one to go with, maybe i'll go by myself or something. i don't know. i feel weird about everything going on. i want to get away from everyone and everything. i want to not talk to anyone for a week, i don't want to see anyone and just be able to think ( Read more... )

you spend all your time preaching about waiting for love. well here it is. right in front of you, and you're going to turn your back on it. so I guess we're just fucked. i'll move on. but you are going to have to live the rest of your life knowing that you've turned your back on love. and that makes you a hypocrite.

i'm really going to try & move on ( Read more... )

PDawg smells: it means I'm through caring for you.

needless to say, i feel like dying.

Yeah.. soo everything's been okay I guess. I've been really tired latey, and I take a nap every day when I get home then can never fall asleep that night, oh well. My birthday is in a week and I'm really excited and I don't know why because I'm not even doing anything for it, yeah. Soo I haven't really been talking to Patrick as much lately and I ( Read more... )

i want so badly to believe that there is truth, that love is real.

i'm not very happy right now, i hope this changes soon

1. List some things you want to say to 15 different people but you know you probably never will.
2. Don't say who they are.
3. Feel free to comment, but don't confirm or answer anything.
4. Never discuss it again.

1. We were so close just a year ago, but now since you have him I feel as though i mean nothing to you, just when he can't be there, that's ( Read more... )