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[anne_t_social]

Every once in a while PPD rears its ugly head again, usually in mundane, am-I-a-good-mother ways, or it's more disturbing form of oh-no-I-am-somehow-going-to-unknowingly-hurt-my-son-or-maybe-I've-even-already-done-so. And then sometimes it surfaces in just plain weird ways.

For instance, this morning my fatter and slower-witted cat, Rosie, came into

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[thesaturdaygirl]

Shit is hard with an infant, yo. Don't beat yourself up about it! Just be happy you have a husband who can and will do such things. ;)

[anne_t_social]

Yeah, I am pretty stoked that a) Matt is the dude I married and procreated with and b) his office is a 15 minute walk from our house.

Honestly

[frogger414]

I think a year ago I would have judged you but now I am right there with you totally "getting it." Taylor was not a demanding baby at all and things were so easy. Also I was back at work when she was 3m (when shit gets interesting) so I just didn't get how hard it really is to be a SAHM. I begged Jr yesterday to stop crying and to go to sleep because I was so hungry and wanted to eat lunch and it was 2.30 and I was loosing my shit. So yeah, I totally get it and I'm glad Matt came home to help. *hugs*

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[anne_t_social]

I mean, these days Theo is a pretty easy baby, but he was kind of tough at the beginning, and that triggered a lot of my PPD, I think.

*hugs* I hope things are better and easier for you guys soon. And they should be! Jr. is almost at the age when things start to get fun. Hold on, lady.

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[frogger414]

My PP issues started in my pregnancy and I didn't know until recently that it's part of PPD.

One day at a time, right?

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[anne_t_social]

Yes, exactly. One foot in front of the other.

A lot of my anxiety started during pregnancy, but I naively thought that they would clear up postpartum.

[ciararavenblaze]

pffffft. no judging here--PPD is a bitch. whether it's the mild version or not, it's a bitch. and I know because I've seen my sister deal with it three times.

and Matt is AWESOME. absolutely awesome.

[anne_t_social]

Yeah, it sucks. It wasn't mild at first, but, with care and management, it's become a lot easier to deal with.

And for sure, Matt is the greatest. No argument there.

[syganzychick]

No judging, seriously. Motherhood is hard enough, and most of us spend enough time beating ourselves up over it and do a better job than anyone else could.

I've been reading your entries and just haven't commented. Did No Cry Sleep Solution help at all??

[anne_t_social]

A bit, I think! I have to admit that I haven't been very strict in adhering to it. Mostly by the end of the day I'm just too tired. And lazy.

Things were better for a while and then they got terrible again and now I think they're (hopefully) a bit better?

[syganzychick]

I know it's not the easiest thing in the world to stick to, but trust me, it's worth it.

Like yesterday, I had to take Bellybeans to work with me. We got home at 10am which is morning nap time. I took her into her room, put her in her crib, handed her her lovey and she rolled over and went to sleep. Unheard of before we tried it! We had 3-4 long, sucky months of having to do everything precisely, but trust me, it does pay off. At this point, she sleeps 6:45pmish til 7am ish, wakes up maybe once about 4 or 5am to eat but goes right back to sleep, naps at 10am and 1:30pm for anywhere from 1-3 hours a piece. It took alot of hard work, I wont lie, but the payoff was worth it.

[anne_t_social]

Yeah, I find that getting out makes a huge difference. We're really lucky in that we live in a very walkable part of the city. Man, hormones. They do suck!

And thank you <3