"I spent all my time overachieving because I crave attention and admiration more than anything else in the world and now I am very successful HAHA SUCKERS!"
...oh and some stuff about wanting your childhood back to score pity points from creepy dudes with anime userpics and shit
I'm kind of in the similar position as well, except I was lazy in high school and didn't really care until my junior/senior year, and even then it wasn't that much. I applied for ONE college. ONE.
You wanna know when I got my shit in gear? When I started working at the studio. Then I started teaching privately...then added on teaching as a fill-in teacher for the rest of the year at McArthur High.
Now I'm an IT professional with one of the biggest music companies in the world. Soon, I'll be living on MY OWN and doing music production at night, and also singing with a professional choir.
You didn't miss much in high school. Just lazy. So don't beat yourself up for it.
Oh, and friday I better see your ass at Gameworks. Call me Wednesday before my flight.
As for the topic at hand... I really have no comment due to my lack of sympathy.
Wait, I do have something to say actually.
You may have all that stuff that you've mentioned, Congrats. But I feel that I must inform you that my actions in highschool did not in one bit reflect anything on my childhood. We all laughed and goofed off to, if even for a split second, forget about us ever turning in to something comparible to what you were.
You know, I am not even going to go on any more with this. I am just going to say this: You can have your job(s), school and "admiration". I'll take the laughter and memories.
It all helped in the last four years more than any of the things you "have".
I was grown up at age 10, being a member of a competition dance company and playing softball, then joining Symphonic Youth, which always felt more like a job than a recreational activity.
If you call that being "grown up". I think there still are some (a lot of) things you need to face.
God damn I could go on for hours about this, but I will stick to not caring. This is our fork in the road. See ya if it meets at the other end. Which I doubt it will.
PS: In that great email I got from you, this stuck out:
…but then you went to Savannah to see Tam? I know you said you’d stop by, but I was in Ithaca….but why didn’t you schedule it so you could see me? Why didn’t you make a trip to come see me? Didn’t you miss me?
First let me say, I was invited on this trip. It was for someone else. Maybe you should have looked a little ahead and saw that I was going to be home and thought "Maybe I should postpone this trip to see him." Instead of thinking that everything has to revolve around you.
I didnt think that trip in particular should revolve around me
But my boyfriend had been home for 2 months by then, and I hadnt seen him since he dropped me off at the airport in january. I figured if he could get the time off to go up to savannah, why the hell did he keep giving me excuses about coming to see me?
The whole universe doesnt revolve around me. I am very well aware of that, and have always been. I am a god damn teacher. My universe pretty much revolves around other people and how I can help them. Throughout most of our relationship my romantic universe revolved around my boyfriend...thinking and dreaming about how we'd be together when he got back. The problem was, that in the end my universe revolved around someone who left it 2 months before he got home, but I didn't know that.
"Maybe right now what I really need is to NOT know something for once. To have the childhood all of you got to have before. I didnt have the luxury of failing a class in high school cause I was aware of those consequences back then, unlike alot of people I knew. I didn't get to loaf around cause I always had work or dance or practice. And ever since childhood all I have done is work."
some of us didn't get this opportunity either. my 'rents had a business which I came "home" to work after school. but I also agree with what was previously said about "you didn't miss much" Some got to do stupid things, sure. I look back and think "would I have done those kinds of things?" and the answer is "no"
*sighs* I hate stupid arguements like these. I try to avoid them with a passion. Especially since I don't know the whole gist of things that saying anything isn't quite fair. So I'll just quote
"Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune"
Alan: Hun, this was in NO way directed at you. When I said "all of you" I referred to the people I knew back in high school that were commonly referred to as "Underachievers". I know you had it hard, harder than me. You dont need to defend that, and I would really rather you didnt take this as an attack on you cause thats the last thing I need right now is to insult a true friend of mine. I <3 you, and miss you, and didn't mean anything negative toward you.
Everyone else/Jerry: Or anyone for that matter. I wasnt trying to put myself on a high horse, but come on. I have worked my ass off to get where I am today and I'm somewhere fucking awesome (besides the incredible amount of stress I'm under). I put 4.5 years in to a top ten Music University, graduated with honors, and now work 3 jobs because I love them. But all I got was "At least I know what I want unlike some people"....yeah, sure. I told Sarah you said that and she busted out laughing so hard the baby was kicking. You lecturing me on having ambition was the funniest fucking
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"*sighs* I hate stupid arguements like these. I try to avoid them with a passion. Especially since I don't know the whole gist of things that saying anything isn't quite fair"
I meant this and the last journal post. the "arguement" or "discussion" or whatever you call it between you and Jerry. I hate stupid arguements like these. I call them that because all this stuff could have been discussed a LONG time ago, and ppl don't do it. ("I don't have time. They don't have time. They're never home/free, etc." I see these as excuses. we live in a world of email, voicemail, and answering machines.)then things happen. then the shit hits the fan. what could have been small, like a fart, becomes nothing but bloated, congested gas. hence I'm just saying the rest of the stuff, I'm staying out of. I have no "objective" point of view, and that's in part because I don't know Jerry, which means anything I have to say is unfair.
Heh, Sarah and Brad... I am just going to skip that one. I'll give you points for using the Sarah bit, but I really don't fucking care what she, or any of your friends think. We're not together anymore. So it doesn't affect me what so ever. Now if you like; You may continue this dick waving, but I won't be here. I've just realized that, even though completely humorous, this was a waste of time. Have fun with whatever you choose to do. Or who ever you choose to toy with. You'll be their problem, not mine. See ya.
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"I spent all my time overachieving because I crave attention and admiration more than anything else in the world and now I am very successful HAHA SUCKERS!"
...oh and some stuff about wanting your childhood back to score pity points from creepy dudes with anime userpics and shit
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You wanna know when I got my shit in gear? When I started working at the studio. Then I started teaching privately...then added on teaching as a fill-in teacher for the rest of the year at McArthur High.
Now I'm an IT professional with one of the biggest music companies in the world. Soon, I'll be living on MY OWN and doing music production at night, and also singing with a professional choir.
You didn't miss much in high school. Just lazy. So don't beat yourself up for it.
Oh, and friday I better see your ass at Gameworks. Call me Wednesday before my flight.
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As for the topic at hand... I really have no comment due to my lack of sympathy.
Wait, I do have something to say actually.
You may have all that stuff that you've mentioned, Congrats. But I feel that I must inform you that my actions in highschool did not in one bit reflect anything on my childhood. We all laughed and goofed off to, if even for a split second, forget about us ever turning in to something comparible to what you were.
You know, I am not even going to go on any more with this. I am just going to say this:
You can have your job(s), school and "admiration". I'll take the laughter and memories.
It all helped in the last four years more than any of the things you "have".
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If you call that being "grown up". I think there still are some
(a lot of) things you need to face.
God damn I could go on for hours about this, but I will stick to not caring. This is our fork in the road. See ya if it meets at the other end. Which I doubt it will.
PS: In that great email I got from you, this stuck out:
…but then you went to Savannah to see Tam? I know you said you’d stop by, but I was in Ithaca….but why didn’t you schedule it so you could see me? Why didn’t you make a trip to come see me? Didn’t you miss me?
First let me say, I was invited on this trip. It was for someone else. Maybe you should have looked a little ahead and saw that I was going to be home and thought "Maybe I should postpone this trip to see him." Instead of thinking that everything has to revolve around you.
Good night and have a safe trip.
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But my boyfriend had been home for 2 months by then, and I hadnt seen him since he dropped me off at the airport in january. I figured if he could get the time off to go up to savannah, why the hell did he keep giving me excuses about coming to see me?
The whole universe doesnt revolve around me. I am very well aware of that, and have always been. I am a god damn teacher. My universe pretty much revolves around other people and how I can help them. Throughout most of our relationship my romantic universe revolved around my boyfriend...thinking and dreaming about how we'd be together when he got back. The problem was, that in the end my universe revolved around someone who left it 2 months before he got home, but I didn't know that.
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some of us didn't get this opportunity either. my 'rents had a business which I came "home" to work after school. but I also agree with what was previously said about "you didn't miss much" Some got to do stupid things, sure. I look back and think "would I have done those kinds of things?" and the answer is "no"
*sighs* I hate stupid arguements like these. I try to avoid them with a passion. Especially since I don't know the whole gist of things that saying anything isn't quite fair. So I'll just quote
"Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune"
screw the taking arms part. I'm a pacifist
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Everyone else/Jerry: Or anyone for that matter. I wasnt trying to put myself on a high horse, but come on. I have worked my ass off to get where I am today and I'm somewhere fucking awesome (besides the incredible amount of stress I'm under). I put 4.5 years in to a top ten Music University, graduated with honors, and now work 3 jobs because I love them. But all I got was "At least I know what I want unlike some people"....yeah, sure. I told Sarah you said that and she busted out laughing so hard the baby was kicking. You lecturing me on having ambition was the funniest fucking ( ... )
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I meant this and the last journal post. the "arguement" or "discussion" or whatever you call it between you and Jerry. I hate stupid arguements like these. I call them that because all this stuff could have been discussed a LONG time ago, and ppl don't do it. ("I don't have time. They don't have time. They're never home/free, etc." I see these as excuses. we live in a world of email, voicemail, and answering machines.)then things happen. then the shit hits the fan. what could have been small, like a fart, becomes nothing but bloated, congested gas. hence I'm just saying the rest of the stuff, I'm staying out of. I have no "objective" point of view, and that's in part because I don't know Jerry, which means anything I have to say is unfair.
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