Don't worry, I'll continue to alienate myself from everybody as planned.

[annorexorcist]

I don't know why I even type in here anymore. When I first started Livejournal it was a private journal in which I wrote very depressed miserable stuff just to vent. Eventually it became a public journal, in which I tell maybe 10% of what I have to think and 90% of random shit. I kind of censor myself at the subconscious level, not intentionally,

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[sapitaurchin]

listen, I found your entry completely randomly, but it reminded me a lot -- like, eeriely so -- of things I wrote when I was in high school. And, admittedly, things I write more often than I'd like to acknowledge these days, when Im ostensibly grown up. Also, I just moved out to Texas a few months ago, and not to hate on your homestate or anything, but I don't envy you growing up out here. Not that rural PA is a lot better. Anyway, I wanted to tell you that it gets better, if by better one means, the scenery diversifies and the insecurity becomes recurrent rather than chronic. Also: you seem smart and sensitive and insightful, from what I've read of your journal, and while those aren't especially valued traits in most 17-year-old social circles, they attain a higher market value as you get older... though that sounds kind of mercenary and depressing, come to think about it.

Just, you know, a heads up that youre probably a lot closer to who you want to think you are than who you're afriad you might be.

[goddessluvsya]