Just when you think you've got it all figured out...
Well, the house thing fell through. JM's going crazy at home though so we are going to get an apartment. Hopefully over the next year we can plan a wedding and look for a home that is suitable. In the mean time I'm actually SOOOO relieved that we didn't get that house. I mean it was a great deal, and a nice location, with neighbors that I could see myself not hating...but it is such a commitment. I mean 30 years!!! or even 3-5 years is so far from now! I mean I was starting to feel trapped in this betty crocker-domestic-life before we even knew if we had a loan yet. Let me just say i was stressing HARD CORE... like I couldn't sleep...
this is just a sample of what would go through my head:
buy house-> married-> no money-> indefinite working-> never go back to school-> no money-> no entertainment-> always home-> bordom-> doing it a lot to cure bordom(come on, its always fun*wink*)-> babies(eewww!)-> me as big as a house-> AGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOO!!!!!!!
yeah.... I was WAY over reacting but... I'm young. I have a lot of stuff I'd llike to do before I am trrappedd like that. I like where I am right now. am I could stand a change like being on my own. I know I will grow from it. then I can buy food and not worry about my family inhaling everything I didn't buy for them. I can workout in MY living room/dining room what ever& not worry about a huge dumb Great Dane in my way... Privacy... I am looking forward to just confirming that I can co-inhabit a living space with John-Mike for more than a week.
Um lets see- what else... I would really like to get a group of friends together & take a road trip or go camping, or to an amusment park. I haven't done shit this summer... Maybe even just a picnic. I love grilling out too, but no one ever lets me help cook. :( ... stupid boys!
this is just a sample of what would go through my head:
buy house-> married-> no money-> indefinite working-> never go back to school-> no money-> no entertainment-> always home-> bordom-> doing it a lot to cure bordom(come on, its always fun*wink*)-> babies(eewww!)-> me as big as a house-> AGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! NOOOOO!!!!!!!
yeah.... I was WAY over reacting but... I'm young. I have a lot of stuff I'd llike to do before I am trrappedd like that. I like where I am right now. am I could stand a change like being on my own. I know I will grow from it. then I can buy food and not worry about my family inhaling everything I didn't buy for them. I can workout in MY living room/dining room what ever& not worry about a huge dumb Great Dane in my way... Privacy... I am looking forward to just confirming that I can co-inhabit a living space with John-Mike for more than a week.
Um lets see- what else... I would really like to get a group of friends together & take a road trip or go camping, or to an amusment park. I haven't done shit this summer... Maybe even just a picnic. I love grilling out too, but no one ever lets me help cook. :( ... stupid boys!