i hope you choke on the words you spoke
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Wow. I'm so fucking sick of feeling like I'm nothing, when I know that im going 12 times farther then all you pathetic little faggots. The perfect word to describe what I'm feeling right now is HATE. I usually HATE myself, and yes, there are things I don't like...like being so fucking stupid and waiting around for your DUMB ASS, yes I said it...YOU ARE DUMB!...waiting around for you to realize that IF YOU "HAVE NOTHING IN COMMON" AND SHE "DOESNT TRUST YOU" AND SHES NOT "PERSONAL" THEN ITS NOT FUCKING WORTH IT. you call me EVERY FUCKING NIGHT...we talk on the phone at least, AT LEAST 3 fucking times a day...and what am I? shot down when I tell you I like you...and why? BECAUSE YOU'RE "TALKING" TO HER. okay seriously, I'm a big girl and I can take let down and heart break...but don't expect me to feel HAPPY when you sit there putting her down knowing very well that theres another option...ME! whatever, this entry isn't about you, I wouldn't want to give you that ego boost you fucking retard.
Seriously, why do I constantly think when someone calls me there "bestfriend" that they fucking mean it? How stupid to believe people!
Courtney just to let you know, you've really fucking hurt me! AAAAAAAAND don't you dare think about giving me shit about this being in my journal...IF YOU ANSWERED YOUR CALLS...OR PICKED UP A FUCKING PHONE...then that wouldn't be and issue. I don't get how I'm supposed to drop everything at your EVERY WHIM, yet when I need my "bestfriend" most...YOU ARE NO WHERE TO BE FOUND!? I've been there for you through EVERYTHING...and when I say EVERYTHING I mean EVERY FUCKING THING...I fucking went to court with you! I stood up for you against everyone...I lost friends for you...A friendship is a 2 way street...so I'm sick of being the only one trying to keep this friendship lasting...It really sucks that you had to get "asked to leave" Countryside...and that we became friends with Alex...It was our downfall...No offense to Alex, me and her are cool now, but that whole situation really fucked us over! I honestly feel like I try to hard to make you happy...And im done being so upset because you are to busy to even talk to me. I just hope you know that as I write this, which you'll probably never read, I'm crying...I really truely believe that if I would have stopped trying when I had FIRST thought about it...that our friendship wouldn't have even made it this far. I will miss you...and never forget you. You SHOULD have my number...if you ever need anything I'm only 7 digits away...
Just when you think things are finally starting to look up...Someone steps on the back of your shoe and you go flying and smack right on your face...It's life...I guess I need to learn to live it.
It really sucks when you are so pissed and so fed up with life in general, and you realize...You have no one to call...No one to lean on...You have no one.
"its not always rainbows and butterflies"
YEAH but it would at least be nice if every once in a while i saw one.
Wow. I'm so fucking sick of feeling like I'm nothing, when I know that im going 12 times farther then all you pathetic little faggots. The perfect word to describe what I'm feeling right now is HATE. I usually HATE myself, and yes, there are things I don't like...like being so fucking stupid and waiting around for your DUMB ASS, yes I said it...YOU ARE DUMB!...waiting around for you to realize that IF YOU "HAVE NOTHING IN COMMON" AND SHE "DOESNT TRUST YOU" AND SHES NOT "PERSONAL" THEN ITS NOT FUCKING WORTH IT. you call me EVERY FUCKING NIGHT...we talk on the phone at least, AT LEAST 3 fucking times a day...and what am I? shot down when I tell you I like you...and why? BECAUSE YOU'RE "TALKING" TO HER. okay seriously, I'm a big girl and I can take let down and heart break...but don't expect me to feel HAPPY when you sit there putting her down knowing very well that theres another option...ME! whatever, this entry isn't about you, I wouldn't want to give you that ego boost you fucking retard.
Seriously, why do I constantly think when someone calls me there "bestfriend" that they fucking mean it? How stupid to believe people!
Courtney just to let you know, you've really fucking hurt me! AAAAAAAAND don't you dare think about giving me shit about this being in my journal...IF YOU ANSWERED YOUR CALLS...OR PICKED UP A FUCKING PHONE...then that wouldn't be and issue. I don't get how I'm supposed to drop everything at your EVERY WHIM, yet when I need my "bestfriend" most...YOU ARE NO WHERE TO BE FOUND!? I've been there for you through EVERYTHING...and when I say EVERYTHING I mean EVERY FUCKING THING...I fucking went to court with you! I stood up for you against everyone...I lost friends for you...A friendship is a 2 way street...so I'm sick of being the only one trying to keep this friendship lasting...It really sucks that you had to get "asked to leave" Countryside...and that we became friends with Alex...It was our downfall...No offense to Alex, me and her are cool now, but that whole situation really fucked us over! I honestly feel like I try to hard to make you happy...And im done being so upset because you are to busy to even talk to me. I just hope you know that as I write this, which you'll probably never read, I'm crying...I really truely believe that if I would have stopped trying when I had FIRST thought about it...that our friendship wouldn't have even made it this far. I will miss you...and never forget you. You SHOULD have my number...if you ever need anything I'm only 7 digits away...
Just when you think things are finally starting to look up...Someone steps on the back of your shoe and you go flying and smack right on your face...It's life...I guess I need to learn to live it.
It really sucks when you are so pissed and so fed up with life in general, and you realize...You have no one to call...No one to lean on...You have no one.
"its not always rainbows and butterflies"
YEAH but it would at least be nice if every once in a while i saw one.