i'm lonely.
lately, i'm going for a new kind of image.
i just haven't decided what that is yet.
but you'll be seeing red next week.

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today was sad.:( i missed dan and his family. and everyone else was there, too. everyone that matters to dan, anyway. at least i think so. we all tried not to cry. i wanted to be strong for dan. except i didn't know what to say. so i just stayed. oh well. his dad will definitely be missed. i couldn't fucking get the whole day off of work, because ( Read more... )

today was horrible. and i can only imagine how horrible it is for dan. but cori called me at work to tell me what happened. and that's all i thought about all day. i honestly can't say what i would do if that happened to one of my parents. i'd be lost. i had a long period where i tried not to cry..but i eventually broke down. i'm talking to dan ( Read more... )

it might sound funny, but i had so much hope. my heart was set on what i knew i wanted and hoped that i'd get. and i did, for a little while. then it wasn't enough for either of us. and it got to be too much and i think we both realized it, but at different times. that's where it got fucked up. i recognized it then, but i know for sure now. what i' ( Read more... )

tonight gets a thumbs down.:'(
i'm so confused.

weird last couple of days. actually hung out with cori, oh my god, haha. we went to ysu to visit with megan and people. there was pretty much nothing to do. so we walked a lot and talked. got lost on the way home. not even getting into it ( Read more... )

i have come to the conclusion that....i am a jerk. so i apologise in advance to everyone ( Read more... )

i've been backtracking.
a lot.i think too much ( Read more... )

oh boy. i hate keeping secrets.
but i have to. shoot.
i want to experience college life, more.
maybe i'll visit megan today...
since matt disappeared? i'm still waiting for a call.
but who knows?
minta wants to go to the dorms
...shut up, you don't know anything. ha.
irish bob's tonight? maybe that, too. shiiit.

it's so difficult to entertain the idea that i can't trust anyone anymore. why does it always have to happen like this? no one knows what i'm talking about, but that's not the point. everything's fallen apart over the last 3 days ( Read more... )