On friends: Ah, you sound like me! Which is why I asked the question... But is it bitterness or just pain? I like to think it is pain. Do I flatter myself? Had someone asked me the question I would have written exactly the same thing.
I liked your answers about dark and bright comfort, too. Thank you very much for all these answers. I am glad I asked!
No, it is bitterness. If I were speaking simply in hurt I would have talked of being disappointed, bewildered, at a loss. All true, but when I extended on that and contrasted a relatively trivial trait like 'fun' against the serious ones and suggested that I was a burden after detailing things that would indicate I am not, then I am speaking in anger.
The hurt is still fresh and I am workign on defending myself from mre, so the anger is appropriate, if not well directed. Once I am a bit further away from the immediacy I hope to be able to let it go and simply be hurt. Much easier to heal when I am not obscuring the wound, even if what is causing the interference is my defence.
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I liked your answers about dark and bright comfort, too. Thank you very much for all these answers. I am glad I asked!
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The hurt is still fresh and I am workign on defending myself from mre, so the anger is appropriate, if not well directed. Once I am a bit further away from the immediacy I hope to be able to let it go and simply be hurt. Much easier to heal when I am not obscuring the wound, even if what is causing the interference is my defence.
Thank you for your comments and interest
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