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[anothrwomanlost]

It’s rough, but so was tonight, and I decided to start documenting the moments that have really shaped me. I remember Jana asking me, months ago, about The Moment That Changed My Life-here are the first three that came to mind, chronologically

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[razorw]

*great big hugs* --Ray

[anothrwomanlost]

I'm just--terrified of forgetting, you know? And it was one of those nights when I needed to uncover some meaning.
Thanks for reading, Ray.

[razorw]

Understandable. Just remember you're human. *hugs*. --Ray

[sparklingsatine]

I’m not exactly irreplaceable

oh no darling. don't ever say that.

this is beautiful writing. completely above my level - clear, detailed, poetic, sad, brave. wonderful.

<3

[anothrwomanlost]

Ahh, it was what I felt, then--and at that point, it was maybe even true, because I wouldn't allow myself to be anything, then.
There are more moments to follow, some dizzyingly happy, even--but I probably started with my Gia moment because of your late talk of Angelina.

My writing has never been above your level, and you know--I still think of you, sometimes, as the girl who knows everything. It may take decades to discover the answers, but they're all there, I'm sure of it.
<3

[edens_echo]

Your writing is absolutely beautiful. There's a certain clarity and distance to it. *hugs*

[anothrwomanlost]

Ahh, thank you so much for that.
It all feels really rough, but--there are so many moments I want to preserve; I'm terrified of forgetting.
*hugs* Your comment meant a lot; thank you!

[ereki]

Oh my god, you really are the messiah. This is such beautiful writing, Jen - I wish I could read your summary of everything, all of the moments from your first waking memory to last night, edging into this morning. How are you?

You are so loved.

[anothrwomanlost]

I may be the messiah, but you've totally been my savior over and over again, love.
Now that you've inspired me to write these moments out, I don't plan on stopping. Hah, I'm totally reminded of that morning when you turned off your alarm and I skipped my first meeting and we told our early girlycrush stories.
I'm--better than I've been, which still isn't saying much. But I am loved, and am such a lucky girl. I love you, Jana, and miss you muchly.

[ereki]

No one makes me giggle like you. Can't wait to read more. I truly hope you're well - I think of you all the time. Last night I put on the "every girl i kiss, i just cross her off my list" cd and curled up with Dangerous Angels (I promise I'll return it to you one day soon!). It's not nearly as good as hearing your voice, but that too will surely happen soon. Love you, baby.

[anothrwomanlost]

Ah, I'm thinking of you always, love. Sunny days tend to remind me of those days in April when I was there and you gave me the rushed Jana-tour of Asheville. And dude, when I'm in Myrtle Beach, I'll miss you madly--our photobooth must miss us, you know.

I really am going to be okay, I've just--it's been a rough few days. I'll tell you all about it next time we talk, aight? Because I miss your voice insanely, and the sound of your laughter. Hope that YOU'RE well, really. Love you back, so much!

[sad_hatter]

I don't know if I want more to just be where you are so I could give you the world's biggest gigantic bear-hug, or if I want you to do that to me. You're so beautiful, and everything you have to say is beauitful, and I love you so so madly. Watching you find hope over and over makes me so happy, and I hope you know you mean so much to me.

Sometime next year, I am gonna drive down to NC, and we're gonna party like it's 1999!

[anothrwomanlost]

Oh, you should be here or I should be there and we should spend, like, two weeks non-stop just hugging crazily.
I love you madly, too--this comment has me beaming madly and anxious for when we finally meet. And dude, you & me & Jana, in the same place at the same time?! AHH!
I could never lose hope, so long as people like you are in my world, writing your letters and taking your pictures and always giving me reasons to believe. <333

[ereki]

asdfnmbsdghskdghk this comment left me beaming, too, and it wasn't even for me! <3 <3

[sad_hatter]

Fuckin' A we need this revival asap. I might cry otherwise!