All I really want out of my life, is to feel alive.

I'm going to the beach this Friday, by myself (probably), to be alone, to think, to write ( Read more... )

FUCKKKKK FUCKING PEOPLE.

Even when you have to depend on someone else apparently it's to hard.

just everyone leave me alone.
i wont be answering my phone.

I think I might write a book.

All I do now is sleep, shower, eat, work, repeat.

Where the fuck did my life go?

I feel like a zombie, I really do, not a brain eating zombie, a brain washed zombie.

Nothing exciting happens, I don't make the effort.

What would be the point if I did?

I have like... two friends, out of everyone.
Not to say I was popular, but I'm outgoing and got ( Read more... )

I have my own apartment, I'm almost free!!!!!!! Now to get a second job so I can actually have money.

Thank you Joshua for everything babe! I couldn't be able to be in my apartment right now if you didn't help me.

THEY TOOK OFF CAVEMEN

nooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

I sit in my bed covered but yet so empty. I stare out into my empty room. I'm looking at the blank walls, and the empty closet. There's about 200 hangers, and no clothes. The shadows mocking the light. The dark bookcase empty but it still glows, cardboard cut-outs is not flattering for me. I hope I get my credit card tomorrow so I can buy new ( Read more... )

This year has gone by so fast in two days, and four months I will be 19 years old. The fact is that right now I am 18, and I'm afraid. I'm afraid if I stay in this house I will blink my eyes, and I'll be 22 before I know it, and still trying to mend together my brothers life, and my fathers life. I can't, I can't now at 18, I couldn't when I first ( Read more... )

Whenever the holidays come up I can't seem to look back and remember all my forgotten memories, what happened? I remember this time of year two years ago, it was cold, I wasn't working this much, and I was excited about Sean's Christmas party, and I was buying all my dear friends gifts. This time of year last year I had met Johnathan, we started ( Read more... )

so how do you tell your father that you want to move out because of him, the fact that youre his pride and joy, and that youre his baby, girl. I have no idea, but tomorrow thats my challenge ( Read more... )