Shoot me now

[ansatecross]

As usual, I only post when I feel like shit. So far this is the second day in a row. I'm not well but I'm hanging on. I need to be far, far away from Dawn, and if I weren't so weak and such a putz I would be. Every time I start to hope I want to kill myself when reality comes crashing in, and as long as I'm in her life I'll hope. Maybe one day I

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[subrosa_florens]

I am not annoyed with you for being at your mother's. I think that she needs you. To be honest, I think that she cannot live without you. If that is where you want to stay it is cool with me. Just say so and we will start moving your stuff over. As it is, I started using the Netflix account we set aside for you since you are not here to watch them anymore.

Remember that I did not change apartments simply for you. I did it because I wanted something on the ground floor, facing east so that the setting sun did not turn the place into an oven every evening, and away from that troll, whom I likely would have murdered by now if I were still there. I am glad I moved here. I should have done it much sooner. Like a lot of things in my life, I just needed some good, strong nudges to get me going.