You are only coming through in waves

Nov 30, 2014 20:52

Hello? Is there any body in there?
Now that I've got the Pink Floyd out of my system...

I was truly shocked to see that my last entry was in August. August! I knew it'd been a while, but I had no idea it'd been that long! I've had my LJ pals on my mind and I've been missin' you! I'm still kickin'! The story of my life is much the same - lots of babies, lots of patients, general insanity. I do have a new partner in my practice. She's great and we get along swimmingly. Unfortunately, administration has been a pain in the ass. The nitty gritty day to day details of running an office are downright demoralizing. I did not get into medicine to manage a business, fight insurance companies and Medicare and Medicaid, or practice defensive medicine. I just wanna take care of my patients. *sigh* But such is the modern practice of medicine in the United States. I feel like I spend my days jumping hurdles...

We've been pretty much slammed the last few months and running non-stop. Eventually, after a very bad week in October during which I had 2 patients within 2 days with 2nd trimester miscarriages I decided that I needed a break. I left my partner to hold down the fort for a week earlier this month and headed out of town. It was the first real vacation I'd taken in over a year. In fact, I can count on 1 hand the number of times I've even left the confines of this little town in the last year - and 2 of those times were to undergo a medical procedure! I went to stay with my parents in Chicago and it was fabulous. I didn't realize just how wound up I'd been until I got back and started getting tense again. Of course I jumped right back in and delivered 5 babies the week I got back to town, most of whom were born between midnight and 4 AM. Thankfully, this past week has been a bit quieter, quiet enough to enjoy the holiday in spite of being on call.

And now it's the end of November with the holidays and year's end just 'round the corner. I feel like the sands of time are more like quicksand dragging me under. The more I struggle, the faster I sink! Maybe it's a bit early for New Year's resolutions, but I've got to have a bit more sanity in my life and pace myself so that I don't lose my mind. Ah, well. For now we'll just keep on keepin' on. :-)

putting the fun in dysfunction, stranger than fiction, life is pain madame

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