coming closer, now further away

[antigreen]

there is this person that i really don't want to be, but sometimes it comes out. and also, there are always all of these things that i am thinking or want to say, but i never think/say them in the presence of other people, but for some reason i always think they know what i've been thinking. it's just a really shitty way of communicating how i feel

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[whateverthat]

It's hard to take the world seriously sometimes, especially when you're trying to participate in it at the same time. I guess that kind of works into what you said about people having hidden agendas, sometimes it seems hard for me to determine whether or not people actually give a shit about stuff or are just playing along so that they'll be better off for some reason.
I've sort of found that I'm this totally different person when I'm not around other people, and that if I could have anything it would be the ability to be that person in the day-to-day life. Then sometimes I feel like I'm just lying to myself and that the person I am is the person I am when I'm around everyone else, and I get worried that it's true. Then I have to talk myself out of it... anyway.

Yeah, some passion would be nice.

[whateverthat]

"there is this person that i really don't want to be, but sometimes it comes out."

Is that just a roundabout way of trying to tell everyone that you're a werewolf?

[antigreen]

shit. don't tell anyone.