Im so confused.

And very tired.

Too many conflicting thoughts and feelings! Someone needs to put my mind at rest.

Unfortunately, you dont know who you are exactly. Neither do I, in fact.

Oh, and I need to stop being awkward.

That A OK post was a complete lie. Dont you hate it when you feel completely trapped? Feeling like there is no way out, and that you will just end up hurting everyone if you try and follow your own emotions. Well thats how I feel right now. It certainly isn't fun. I just want to tell everyone the truth, and I have started trying to do that. ( Read more... )

Everything is A OK.

...But there is still a constellation. With some more stars added... this is when I wink and laugh.

I swear right now that I will not wallow in self pity. So please, dont say I am. I wont, its obviously not helping very much. And I still dont know why I have bad feelings. There isnt anything to feel bad about anymore.

Oh dear. I just found out I am going to Virginia from Friday till Sunday this week, and I have so much work to do for school. Stress times ten million! I have to do a Crucible analysis essay and the whole personal field trip project for English. That may not sound like a lot, but it really is. Im not sure how I am going to manage to do all of ( Read more... )

My mom is being horribly annoying. Her logic really baffles me sometimes. She is lucky I am not anorexic or doing drugs or something. Most people in my place would be in one of those phases if they had to deal with the stuff my mom puts me through ( Read more... )

Name

Searching the skies for a name,
Something to call
you.
Staring into the frosted horizon
I think to myself,
When I tread through the drizzly grass,
When I trek through the snow.
I think of
Those times when bliss was familiar,
and we knew each other.
We knew of names.
Now all is wandering,
Wandering the hillocks of my heart.

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PromiseI ( Read more... )

Ok, first of all. I want to enter a haiku into the Chameleon (among many other things I already enetered) but I cant seem to decide which one of my three favorites to enter. Help me choose ( Read more... )

I didnt do as well as I hoped I would at vocal auditions (I had practiced so much too!). I thought I had to leave at 3:30 because I had an orthodontist appointment at 4:15. So I rushed in, went first and was all out of it and rushing. So I ended up sounding pretty bad (imo) and rushed out because I knew my mom would be mad at me for taking so ( Read more... )