i haven't felt like this in a really long time. I thought about dying a lot. I guess it started this weekend when i had an argument with someone real close to me. I felt really sad and hurt. Like dying. I cried a lot. I don't know why. It just hurt really bad. The hurtful things they said. This happened again today. Another argument. Crybaby, they ( Read more... )

Welly welly well well, now this sucks. It's raining like crazy out there. There was thunder and lightening just a few minutes ago. Frightening!! Just one of the many things that scare me. Right at the top of the list with earthquakes, aftershocks, tsunamis, tornadoes, and sunlight! I know, I know, this isn't as bad as some of the other natural ( Read more... )

the last cd i bought was a really long time ago, last year, and that was franz ferdinand. i don't really buy cds, just ask my sister. music isn't really a huge part of my life really. i mean, i enjoy listening to it on the radio in the car or on my discman sometimes, but i hardly listen to any of my cds anymore like i used to when i used to be ( Read more... )

Well happy new year, everyone. It's 2005. There was a time in my life when i thought i wouldn't live past 2000. I can't believe i'm still here. Anyway, let's recap 2004. Last year was great on deviantART. i don't even remember how i found the page, but i'm glad i did. i think i may have found my niche. i just hope i can keep it up. met a lot of ( Read more... )

Well, it's almost 2005. Wow, time's gone by so fast. I'll write my thoughts on that later, like on actual New Years Day which isn't till tommorrow. Not too fond on change. In fact, kinda hate new years. kind of still hope i was still 9 or something. much happier time then. anyway, i'm rambling again...just thought i'd post all of the new films i've ( Read more... )

my new digital camera is soooo cool. i love it. i just wish i had a better computer though. everything works perfectly fine, except for now when i go online, it just either freezes or shuts down, it's really weird. could be the AOL. i wish i had a friend who was a computer expert. my cousin, who's got the same computer as me, restarted the whole ( Read more... )

This has probably been the best xmas in my entire life--present-wise. I'd usually get money and blow it the next day on useless crap i don't remember ever buying. This time though, things were strangely different. I actually got some pretty cool gifts that i could actually use. I was surprised though, I must say. I wrote out a xmas list as a joke ( Read more... )

Postponed until next year!!!
Woo hoo!!!

wow, how long has it been??? like 2 weeks or something, i think. just shows how busy i've been with finals and junk at school. so yeah, i got an A in my photography class for sure, and I'm still dreading that math grade. I'm pretty sure i passed though. I'm smart. teee!! um, let me just sum up these past two weeks: k, so studying a lot for math ( Read more... )

10:00 AM: Woke up, wiped the saliva off my cheek and walked disorientedly to the bathroom and took a piss. Then i washed my hands and face. Rosemary had called. She'd be waiting at the bus stop for me to pick her up and so i did. Then we went to school to develop our negatives from the cemetery photoshoot ( Read more... )