Master and Submissive, Part Two; Apologies and Faults

[antithestasia]

Last night was the first time I had seen My Master since I came to this conclusion, since I have gained this resolve to do My best. During the course of the evening, he was rude to Me three times, and three times I let it go. After the last one, I excused Myself, and hid in a different room with a book. I had planned to stay in there until I was no

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[thelastmehina]

You can't change anyone else, you can only change yourself.

You cannot rely on words alone - actions have greater meaning, too.

If you're not happy, then work with him to become happy. If you're not happy and you know you can't be happy, then leave. It will hurt and will break your heart into a bajillion little pieces - but three months from now, you won't be hurting over any of it anymore.

That's the best advice I can offer. Whatever you choose to do, I hope it makes you happy. Because you're a good person, and you deserve to be happy and to be with someone who makes you happy.

[antithestasia]

Thank you, My dear. He does make Me happy. The problem is, he also makes Me unhappy, and I am not sure if the good outweighs the bad. I owe both of us more than I've been giving, and I am repairing that, but I wonder if it will do any good in the end -- if I will have to leave anyway. Maybe it is simply the dynamic of the relationship that I am not comfortable with.

[dgchessman2]

I wish you the best of luck. Relationships of the monogamous-sort are complicated... ones with unique twists and turns are even more so. You'll need patience and understanding for (inserts number of partners here) ^_^

I know you're strong enough. Even just meeting you briefly, it was clear.

You just have to find a way to focus that strength. Put it to use for you when and where you need it.

Keep your chin up.... you'll get through this one way or another. And you'll learn a lot in the process. Just never forget to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the beaten path.

Hell... especially when it leads you off the beaten path ^_~

*leaves a cookie behind for you, and scampers off*

[antithestasia]

Oh, a Mind Control Cookie?! For Me? You shouldn't have. Thank you, for it and the encouragement.