I'm going to live in the woods.

[antitype]

Over the last couple of weeks, I've been finding human beings more and more terrifying.

Comments

[chocolatebark]

Aww, man. Take care of you.

[antitype]

I'm too nice, and too much of a pushover. That's my problem. I also feel guilty about everything, even where I'm not (solely) at fault.

[girlracer]

I only feel guilty when I've fucked up, and when I fuck up, I do everything I can to make things right. Let's have an honest conversation about this so that I can at least walk away feeling like you respected me, and so that you don't have anything to feel bad about, because right now, even with everything I've done wrong, the fact is, you still fucked me over, and were REALLY disrespectful, selfish, and inconsiderate.

You're right, I do push people away, but a lot of the way I've been acting lately is because you've been treating me worse than dirt. It's complicated. Please let me explain. Look, I'm not scary, I am probably one of the nicest people you will ever meet, I'm just really hurt and confused right now, and not doing too well in general. I'm not asking you to invest in me emotionally or whatever, I'm asking you to talk to me and treat me like someone worth making feel better after you've been a huge jerk to them. And it's not like you weren't a huge jerk. You're being a huge jerk now. Please call me.

[cut_dead]

Human beings have always terrified me. That's why I'm a loner.

[antitype]

I always have been, really, but moving to a new place tends to bring you out of your shell.

Not to sound at all like I'm down on having moved here. It's been great, and I know it will get even better. But yeah... Just been having some unsettling experiences.

Moving To A Library?

[magazine_elf]

I work for santa_bookworm
He says he has something you can ADD to your reading list!

Re: Moving To A Library?

[cut_dead]

Awesome.

[mistercreepy]

what about human doings?

[antitype]

One and the same, I guess.

[killerangel]

avoid anime cons

[animate]

Seriously. I've never seen anything more frightening than 45 cosplayers mimicking a game of Para Para Paradise. It's kind of like watching yourself bleed to death.

[unskilledlabor]

Hello, cryptic LJ entry.

How's it going with your brother and all subsequent alienation, by the way?

I once drove from Anacortes to Banff over the course of one tremendously long day. By the end of it I not only wanted to disappear into the Canadian Cascades, I was also nearly blind! Really though, that whole stretch of mountains (3 different ranges converge up there) makes me wonder how many cars they find abandoned along the road.

[antitype]

I wish I had more to say about what's going on w/ my brother, but I still haven't heard back from him. I try calling him both and home and on his cell phone, but he never answers. So I guess that says it all.