Love is a choice!

[anxietyattack21]

Hello all! I was so happy to gain so many livejournal friends. I love to read about the lives of others :P I feel like I finally have a moment to breathe and type. So today started out weird. I had the strangest dream last night, and I've yet to interpret it on http://www.dreammoods.com

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[tinypower]

Sometimes, even though the guy is so sweet and caring, you just can't force yourself to be attracted to them. It's just about chemistry and compatibility IMO.

Also, most of my fantasies revolve around rape but I can't remember ever being sexually abused. I think you're probably normal :)

Boys.....

[anxietyattack21]

Thanks for the comment. I guess I do feel like there's something more there with Matt. The first night I met him, he cuddled me and I just felt really great. We hung out all weekend, and I hated him on the third day...only because he revealed a weak, depressed side of himself to me. I guess, maybe, I feel like there could be something there, but I don't think I'll ever know if I can't stop putting so much pressure on it. Grrrr. He already has my name tattooed on his wrist for goodness sake.

[purple_and_red]

i think Freud would have had a field day with me. i can remember stuff similar to what you described about sleeping with your sister, being touched, etc. but i've never been sexually abused. i always just thought of myself as inherently a bit...sexual?

i don't know...aghh. but i can relate, so you aren't weird. or we both are. lol.

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[anxietyattack21]

what does that mean?