Comments | anxietyattack21: Siiiigh

anxietyattack21

Siiiigh

Jun 10, 2008 11:10

My life is so messed up right now. I never even liked Matt and now that he's gone, of course I miss him desperately. I've had sex with TWO guys in the last WEEK...which made me feel incredibly dirty and hate myself. I can't stop throwing up, and I'm scared God is going to punish me by taking away the stuff I've worked so hard for. After days of me ( Read more... )

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need_anoutlet June 10 2008, 19:40:54 UTC

what happened with you and matt?

Ugh... anxietyattack21 June 10 2008, 20:37:29 UTC

I broke up with him, cause no matter what, I just DID NOT feel in love with him. During our break up period, I slept with a guy. Matt and I try to get back together, but when I tell him this...he is insanely pissed and needs time away from me. I'm not very good at handling time apart, so I freak...driving him even further away. Then, I found out he had an internet girlfriend for a big chunk of the time we dated. Whatever....I'm so over men. I think I need to take a break. My counseling is helping, I just feel blah and "inbetween" right now.