how do you feel?

[anything_but_ok]

if you asked me how i was doing i'd probably tell you i'm doing pretty well with a grin and a hearty laugh. just don't remind me of that gaping hole in my heart. sure i've added a fine polish to my life. dressed it up in ribbons and bows. but the box is empty. the box is empty.

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[rosnbery]

I'd hate to be an asshole, maybe its the creepy mustache, but "the box is empty" is a fine, fine double entendre. Bravo.

[anything_but_ok]

so it is. so it is.

[anything_but_ok]

things are heavier alone. the facade allows me to keep from feeling stooped. you can't see the internal holes. i'd rather convince myself & everyone else that things are fine while only occasionally acknowledging the internal. sometimes things do get better if you just let them simmer & this is one of those things.

there are many differences between having & not & personal perceptions about the two states are what make things hardest. i also don't want to be responsible for someone right now. i just wish i could find some quiet. i feel like a fire raging, then slowly burning down, then being rekindled again.

ps i agree that both are valid. i recognize that i need to change my conception. joy is no less a valid emotion than sorrow.

i'm very glad to know you, sue hayes.

[skittblink]

I too wish I could quite the fire. They might be different fires, but I am exhausted, from being empty and full.

[anonymous]

oh oh oh! oh. i'm quite glad to know you too. (:

[zbladerunner]

I know how you feel i think, im sorry