help! i don't know what to do w/ my immediate future ( Read more... )

if it weren't so cold out i'd rip off all my clothes & dance amongst all the trees.

oh, the equinox, the equinox!

1st thunderstorm of the yr = spring

joy! & i'm sitting up letting it happen around me.

i really like thunderstorms

if you asked me how i was doing i'd probably tell you i'm doing pretty well with a grin and a hearty laugh. just don't remind me of that gaping hole in my heart. sure i've added a fine polish to my life. dressed it up in ribbons and bows. but the box is empty. the box is empty.

i very nearly died in class today. we were going over "The Lovesong of J. Alfred Prufrock." over-whelming. i wish i had someone to fuck.

i wonder what part of reality my brain is attempting to hide from. it refuses to let me wake up in the morning. today it can almost be forgiven for it's attempts to bury the horrendous dream i had but not so much since it just piled layers on top of that making it all that much worse. if my brain really is attempting to hide from reality i wish ( Read more... )

lack of writing. have you noticed it? yeah, lacking everywhere. i hate having a backlog of shit to write, especially now that i'm 'sposed to be doing it weekly for class. i'm not producing at all. not even a fucking journal entry.

*hiss*

bed.

my friendship w/ obie-laura took on a whole added dimension tonight. have i ever told you how much i love this girl? i could gush for hours & i did gush to her tonight about how amazing our friendship is & how great it makes me feel. i won't repeat myself here. anyway, tonight she asked me to help her hang art on her walls. it was fantastic. ( Read more... )

i'm a conclusion & some major editing away from done. in light of that, i'm bailing for the evening in hopes that i can drag my ass out of bed at like 8am to finish (leaves me w/ ~3hrs since i have to submit the thing before class tomorrow... class 11am, paper due noon. bah.). heh. failure on that whole one day thing ( Read more... )

i was so absorbed in writing this paper that i failed to recognize the disparity btwn working from 6-8pm on thur & my paper being due @ noon on thurs... i managed to convince myself that i worked tonight from 6-8 & only realized my error when i got to work & my boss asked, "wait, why are you here?" the days finely bled back into their appropriate ( Read more... )